Chapter 47

WRITTEN IN THE STARS
47

CHRISTOPHER

I don't know what to say but she's crying already. In the short time that we've been together, her cries hurt me the most. I'm not even ready to become a father to anyone, I heave a sigh and step closer to her.

“When did you find out?” I ask her.

“The day you broke up with me.” She says wiping off her tears, I keep quiet for some time.

“Are you denying the baby? if you are then it's okay. You don't have to accept the baby, I'll raise my baby alone.” She says standing up, why is she not even giving me a chance to digest these news then maybe we'll talk

“You can't just assume that I don't want the baby without giving me any chance to diges this Sbanisenkosi.” I say.

“But your silence is telling me alot.” She says.

“You didn't hear me say I'm denying the baby, wait for me so I can do this live presentation.” I say.

“I can't wait, I need to go. I don't feel like staying here..” She says.

“You came here for the sake of our baby, so wait for me for the sake of our baby.” i say.  She glares at me, even behind those teary eyes..I still see the beautiful Chinese eyes. Crazy how I've never attempted to stop loving her...

“Please sit down, the presentation will take an hour, I'm sure you can wait. I'll ask Pam to bring you some food.” I say, she sits down and heaves a sigh.

“Have you gone to the doctor?” I ask her, she shakes her head.

“Your mother thought it would be best if I went to the doctor with you because it will be the first appointment.” She says, I nod.

“Why couldn't you tell me the minute you found out?” I ask her.

“I couldn't. I didn't feel ready, when I left the hospital..I tried calling you but you didn't answer your phone. You basically didn't want anything to do with me so what was tbe use of telling you that I'm pregnant?” She asks.

“But still, because I'm the father of this baby..I had every right to know.” I say..

“I wasn't ready! I was suffering from stress and anxiety attacks Nkanyezi! you put me in a very bad place and I was dying inside!” She shouts.

“I'm not shouting at you Sbanisenkosi, don't shout at me.” I say.

“You're stressing me out, things are not the same anymore and it hurts so bad. Now there's a child involved in this mess.” She says, I heave a sigh. She sounds so broken, why am I starting to feel like my decision was a bad one? The door opens and Pam walks in.

“Sir your presentation starts in 5 minutes..” She says walking inside and closing the door. She glares at Sbani..

“Excuse us..” I say to Pam, she tries speaking but I shoot her a look. She must not even dare, she should know her place. She walks out and closes the door.

“Can I do the presentation?” I ask her, she glares at me and nods.

“I'll wait..” She says, I walk over my desk and sit down. I set up everything and turn on the laptop. I can't keep my eyes off her though.. I'm starting to regret, why though?

“Mr Biyela..” My client on the laptop says and I snap out of it, I gather myself together and start the presentation.

After about 30 minutes, she dozes off on the couch.  I said I'll bring her food, what is wrong with me.

“Can we take a 5 minutes break?” I ask the client, he nods. I quickly close the laptop and order some food for her. I don't know what pregnant women eat but I hope she eats whatever I ordered for her

The food I ordered gets delivered in about 10 minutes. I got food for myself ss well, I haven't eaten today. I open her food and set it up nicely on the table besides her, I set my own food on my desk, just some braai meat and pap. I don't know when last I had that, cooking can make you forget dishes you once loved hey.

I walk over to her and shake her kancane, she opens her gorgeous eyes slowly. They're red but beautiful.

“I got you food.” I say, she sits up and stretches her arms.

“What did you get me?” She asks.

“A burger..” I say, she frowns and shakes her head.

“I don't want that.” She says getting up and taking off her sweater, she's wearing an offshoulder boob tube. The boobs..

“What do you want to eat?” I ask her, she stands up and walks to my desk, please don't tell me she's about to eat my food.

“I'll have this..” She says sitting on my chair and taking my meat, lord..

“But that's mine..” I say, she glares at me with a straight face and I sigh.

“Can I eat with you then?” I ask her.

“Fine, but most of the food is mine because I'm hungry.” She says, I can't help but smile. Hmm? so is this pregnancy? my heart feels a bit weird, in a good way. I think..

She stands up grabbing the former packs and walking to the couch. She glares at me.

“Come...” She says, I sit on the other end of the couch while she places the former packs between us. I glare at her as she starts eating, how can one person make you feel this way despite their flaws and inability to show you love?

“Book a doctor's appointment for the checkup, I'll come with you.” I say, she stops eating and glares at me.

“Are you sure? i mean your mother or my mother can accompany me.” She says, clearly not listening.

“That's my baby too so I need to be there.” I say, she nods and continues eating. I can't even eat.

“Why aren't you eating?” She asks, I shake my head.

“It's just crazy that you're pregnant. That never crossed my mind..” I say, she chuckles a bit.

“It feels unreal because now my weight is doing this and that. I'm eating things I told myself I'll never eat.” She says.

“And you're getting more beautiful..” I say, she tries speaking but sighs. She looks down and eats. Once she feels full, she places the leftovers away and has her juice.

“Was your presentation over?” She asks and it hits me, I forgot..

“Yeah..” I lie, I'll just have to forget about doing business with them because I just cut our meeting in half.

“I think I'm gonna leave now. I need to get some sleep..” She says putting on her shoes.

“So the doctors appointment?” I ask her.

“I'll call you and notify you when it will be then you come so we can go together.” She says, I nod.

“I'm sorry I've been ignoring your calls, I didn't know..” I say.

“Don't sweat it, who would answer an ex's phone call?” She says and i feel my heart drop. I don't know why because I declared her as my ex.

“Bye Nkanyezi..” She says walking out, I heave a sigh and sit down. I'm the one who broke up with her right? I can't feel bad right now. I grab my phone and turn it on. You break up with a person but you can't just bring yourself to delete any of their pictures or remove them from your lock screen. What type of a breakup is that? what is wrong with me..