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MELOKUHLE

***I'm at home with my family..it's feels so good to be back actually...uzodumo is doing well at school ngapha uthole nomsebenzi...umama is happy ngoba nathi si happy kodwa ngyasola ngathi kukhona ambonayo...indlela amamatheka ngayo efonini!! Bese kuba umalume who look so good...yazi ngangishilo ukuthi umalume muhle ukuthi woniwa utshwala...ngangingakholwa ngenkathi ethi uzokuyeka utshwala kodwa he proved me wrong!! Uyakhanya futhi usulekile manje and naye uyajola...yikho ukuthi akasifihleli yena...ngibabuke njengoba sisekhishini mina no zodumo siwasha izitsha umama no malume bahleli babuka izindaba...***

Me:Is it me or umama ngathi sekune khehla nje?

***Ahleke uzodumo***

Zodumo:Angeke ngikuphikise lapho...yazi ezinsukwini bamulethele izimbali

Me:Hhebana!

Zodumo:Ngyakutshela...

Me:Unjani kodwa?

Zodumo:Well I'm good..eskoleni kuhamba kahle..besengikhathele ukuhlala endlini ngafuna i piece job

Me:Zodumo awuhaleli nje ukuyofunda lapho okune res khona?

Zodumo:Ukukhuluma iqiniso khona kuyahalisa kodwa cha...ngyathanda ukuhlala ekhaya no mah and uncle..and besides 3 more years then i graduate

Me:Ngyaziqhenya ngawe...no aunty lakhona uyajabula

***We both hug...akhiphe u ice cream bese syanyuka syaphezulu...sfike sihlale embhedeni***

Zodumo:So tell me about andile?

Me:What about him?

ZodumoUkuphethe kahle ngyabona..

***Ngimamatheke***

Me:He make me happy

Zodumo:Uyamthanda?

***Ngimbuke***

Me:Love is a big word...u andile uyanginakekela futhi uyangbonisa uthando..uma nginaye i feel safe..uyangithemba without dought

Zodumo:Do you love him?

***I sigh***

Me:I care about him

Zodumo:Uyakwazi lokho?

Me:Yes..ngfuna sithathe izinto slow...we've been dating for 5 months..i want to learn to love him zodumo..angiziboni nginomunye umuntu ngaphandle kwakhe

***My phone ring and philani's name flash...ngikhiphe umoya bese ngiyayibamba***

Me:Hello

Phila:Sawbona mashenge...uhm..bengfuna ukubuza ukuthi sizohlangana namuhla?

Me:Yes singahlangana ntambama I'll send you i adress

Phila:Ngyakuzwa...

***Adrope ifoni and I'm like...***

Zodumo:What?

Me:He just hang up

Zodumo:Ubufuna enzeni kanti?

Me:Goodbye or see you soon ke..

***Ahleke ngihlale phansi and eat ice cream..u andile must be busy ngoba engakabuyeli kimi...***

Me:So wena namanje awunayo i boyfriend?

***She giggle***

Zodumo:Well kukhona lo guy..

***Ngimbuke and grin***

Me:Iza nazo

Zodumo:Ngsebenza naye..ugh..sobabili syafunana yikho phela ukuthi asitshelani

Me:Manje uyasaba ukwenza i first move?

Zodumo:I'm scared yhoo

Me:Asazike uma sebemthatha...

***Angbuke and i laugh at her...i missed our little moments..kukhale ifoni yami u andile***

Me:Hey

Andile:Sthandwa sami...kade ngsa busy kodwa ngiyitholile i msg yakho..how is everyone?

Me:Ba right...usale kahle?

Andile:Ngikukhumbule

***I smile***

Me:I'll be back soon

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NOMKHOSI

***Ngihleli ngaphandle etshanini ngibuka ngaphandle...abanye balungisa iymbali abanye bayagunda..i can't believe it's been a year ngilapha..angnawo ngisho am visitor..angazi sengimbhalele kangaki uphilani iyncwadi kodwa engaphenduli...usam umile uyazibhemela..usehlisile ukungihlupha and I'm glad...kukhona abafikayo abathola umvuzo...kufike i guard lime phambi kwami***

Her:Une visitor

Me:What?

Her:Nglandele..

***Ngsukume fast size syofika kule room..my heart skip a beat when i see philani and sphiwe..***

Sphiwe:Momyy!!

***He run into my arms and i hug him tight and sob..gosh i missed my son!!***

Me:Sphiwe

***Ngimsule izinyembezi and kiss him..usekhulile lomuntu uba mude futhi manje..i copy ka baba wakhe***

Sphiwe:Mama bengikukhumbule

Me:Me too

Sphiwe:Pls come home

***Ngibambe izinyembezi and hug him...angbuke uphilani ngsukume...he look at me and damn he look good..ngathi uphuma kwi magazine***

Me:Hi

Phila:Hey

Me:Thank you..

***He nods...i wonder if we will ever be okay..ngibuke usphiwe and hug him again bese ngihlala phansi***

Phila:How are you doing?

Me:I'm fine now...

***I sigh***

Me:Ngyaxolisa philani....from the bottom of my heart I'm sorry..ngaze ngakubhalela nezincwadi

Phila:I know..

***Ngisule izinyembezi***

Me:Ngathatha izinqumo ezibhedayo and ngyazisola ngalokho...i ruined my life i know...kodwa ngfuna ukuxolisa...naku melokuhle ngyafuna ukuxolisa ngalento engayenza kuye..i see umphethe kahle usphiwe...

***He chuckles and i smile***

Phila:Kani ungithatha kancane..

Me:Cha ngyabona ukuthi you're good at this

***I'm glad that i got to see them today...***

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MELOKUHLE

***Nglinde uphilani ukuthi afike klendawo athe asihlangane kuyo...so siplena i party ezoba khona after the wedding and into yokuqala ekumele siyenze ukuthola indawo..kume imoto yakhe aphume..ufake i short neskibha and sneakers***

Phila:Mashenge

Me:Philani

Phila:Awukangeni kanti?

Me:I was waiting for you

***Our eyes lock and i look away singene ke lana..indawo enhle enkulu***

Me:Wow

Phila:Nansike indawo engicabanga ukuthi ingaba right for i party

***Avule i sliding door kuvele i pool ngaphandle bese evula amawindi...***

Me:This is beautiful philani...

***Inkulu lendawo kunganela abantu abaningi lana..even ama lights akhanya kamnandi***

Me:Uyitholephi kanjani lendawo philani?

***Angangphenduli ngphenduke ngimbuke only to catch him staring***

Philani:Umshado wethu ubuzoba khona la...

Me:Ohh...

***Kuvele kuthulakale slokhu sibukana...ngibuke lendawo***

Philani:So ngcabanga ukuthi indaba ye decor uzokwazi ukuyi setha

Me:Yes kunabantu ekade ngkhuluma nabo

Philani:Kuno DJ engimaziyo neziphuzo zizobe zikhona..kumele nje uthole izingoma akazithandayo ulonathemba

***Ngibhale phansi izinto esizozidinga***

Phila:So...

***Ngimbuke***

Me:What?

Phila:Unjani kodwa?

Me:Sizosebenza noma sizobuzana ngama personal lives?!

Phila:Benggazi ukuthi kuyicala ukubuza

***I sigh***

Me:I'm fine

Phila:Ngyabona ikuphethe kahle imelika..you're glowing

Me:U andile ungphethe kahle

Phila:Mhhh

***Avale i sliding door***

Me:How's sphiwe?

Phila:Fine

Me:Yini manje wabanda?

Phila:Angizwa?

Me:Ucasulwa yini?

Phila:Angnaso iskhathi sokucasuka mina mashenge nakhona ngezinto ezingasile

Me:Mhhh

Phila:Kumele ngihambe...I'm sure you'll manage

***Usho nje uyambona ukuthi akasekho right..akangbuki ngisho emehlweni..***

Me:No

***Sbukane..angazi ukuthi why ngisho lokho***

Me:Don't go

***Aphenduke ezekimi ngibambe umoya..angbuke emehlweni he is so close to my face i can't even breath..ngihlehle***

Philani:I miss you

***I sigh..asondele abeke isandla sakhe ebusweni bami***

Philani:Ngyazi ukuthi ngingu muntu wokgcina ofuna ukumbona...i fucked up and hurt you...kodwa impilo yami ayiphelelanga..angboni ukuthi ngizoyeka ukukthanda mashenge..you are my soulmate

***Abambe ikhanda lami and press it against his..my heart is beating fast...ngivule amehlo and move back***

Me:I can't...this won't work philani

Phila:Sizokwazi ngani uma singazami futhi?

Me:I'm scared philani...ngyasaba ukuthi uzongilimaza..Kuncono uma ngino andile ngoba ngyazi ukuthi even if he break my heart angeke kube buhlungu

Phila:Because you don't love him right??

Me:Philani

***Angbambe amahlombe pulling me close***

Phila:Ngphendule mashenge...uyamthanda?

Me:It's doesn't matter

Phila:It's fucken matters to me mashenge!! I love you melokuhle and ngyazi ukuthi I'm not perfect kodwa ngishintshile i promise you...benglokhu ngikhuluma ne therapist and i worked on my trust issues...ngyakucela mashenge...i am miserable without you

***Izinyembezi zigcwele emehlweni akhe and that's breaks my heart...but i won't let my guard down..***

Me:I can't...

***Ngimshiye kanjalo izinyembezi ziphume and i wipe them***

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MAZUNGU

***Ngibuka u amanda oshanela igceke...ngimamatheke ngedwa ngoba uzoba umakoti oqotho...uphilani nje kumele amnike ithuba..kufike uzungu angbuke enikina ikhanda***

Zungu:Usu too much manje

Mazungu:Sengenzeni baba?

Zungu:Uphilani washo kwacaca ukuthi akamfuni u amanda pho usafunani la?

Mazungu:Come on baba uphilani will come around..very soon uzokhohlwa umelokuhle

Zungu:Nini njalo ngoba sekuphele unyaka?

***Ahambe...my phone rings bese ngyaybuka...ngiqalaze ukuthi akekho umuntu obukayo bese ngyayibamba***

Mazungu:Yini kodwa??

"Sidinga imali"

Mazungu:Ngikufakelile imali last month!!

"Iphelile nawe uyazi ukuthi kyabiza manje..noma ufuna ngize lapho ngizosho iqiniso?"

Mazungu:Cha cha asikho isdingo ngizoyifaka imali

"Good"

***Ngivale ifoni and click my tounge lomuntu kumele ngenze something ngoba uzomosha ama plans ami..***

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