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NOMKHOSI

***Ngiqeda ukuphuma kwi shower..ngibuyele nglale embhedeni ngfice sekukhona uzekhethelo..***

Me:Ufunani?

Zee:Owh come on don't be like that...

Me:Uthe kimi uma ngiziwisa kuzolimala mina! Akaze usho ukuthi kuzofa nengane

Zee:Bengingazi ukuthi kuzokwenzeka lokho I'm sorry

Me:Nyori??

Zee:Friend come on

Me:Yazi angazi ngangingenwe yini ngilalela wena! Kuymanje nglahlelelwe ingane ngenxa yakho! Angsophinde ngthole abantwana zee!! You knew that philani wanted this baby!

Zee:Ohh pls khosi ungayenzi ngami lento!! Akaze ngikukhombe mina ngesbhamu ngithi gxuma! Wena you were so desperate for philani waze wazibulalela ingane yakho..nansike i plan yakho isebenzile ngoba uphila akasamfuni umelo and usejele

Me:Pls leave..angfune lutho ezongihlanganisa nawe mina..yonke into eyenzeka la iphutha lakho! Hamba la hamba!

Zee:Nawe ingqondo incane and i hope uphila uzokushiya alandele umelokuhle ngoba awsile..i mean ugxuma kanjani umithi kuma steps...vele ubungayfuni lengane or else ubungeke uyibulale

Me:Hamba zee hamba!!!

***Aphume ahambe and i just scream...i cry...umama angene angbuke..anikine ikhanda..my heart skips a beat ngoba kyacaca ukuthi usizwile sno zekhethelo***

Mah:Waze wangiphoxa nomkhosi..

Me:Mama you don't understand...

Mah:Akaze ngikukhulise kanjena mina...angikwazi uma usunenhliziyo embi kanje! You killed your own child khosi? Ngenxa yani mhh? Yokuthi awusfuni isthembu?! Ubulala ingane yakho?? When did you become this evil?! Ishonephi ingane yami engaykhulisa? Ingane ehamba isonto emaziyo unkulunkulu?! Ushintshile khosi..uvumele lomendo wakho ukuthi ukushintshe..angikwazi mina unjena..uzwisa ingane yabantu enganacala ubuhlungu

***I just cry***

Me:I'm hurt mama..I'm hurting!! You will never understand ngoba awukaze waba kwi position engikuyo...uphilani uyamthanda umelokuhle..umthanda ukudlula mina! Ngisho indlela ambuka ngayo mama akangibuki ngayo...i don't wanna lose him mah..he's my everything! My first love!

Mah:Ngasho ngathi if you can't handle ukuba kwisthembu buya ekhaya

***I wail louder***

Me:Akuvumi mama...inhliziyo ayivumi ukuthi ngimshiye...I'm not a bad person nawe uyangazi mah! Kodwa ukufika kwa melokuhle kungbonise ukuthi i will lose phila...

Mah:Kodwa buka izinqumo zakho zikubekephi...fundisa inhliziyo ukubekezela noxolo kanye nokuthula...nomkhosi ngyakwazi awukho nje...ungavumi ukuba umuntu omubi...yabona lezi zenzo zakho zizokwenza uphilani ahambe angabuki nasemumva...into okumele uyenze ukwamukela isthembu or ubuye ekhaya..ku simple nje

Me:Mama angsophinde ngzale..angsophinde ngzalele uphilani

***Angbambe as i wail louder***

Mah:Ngyaxolisa sis..

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PHILANI

***As soon as i heard that umelokuhle uboshiwe ngfonele usyabonga ukuthi akaye epolistation as her lawyer...ikhanda liphithene okwamanje...i also can't leave unomkhosi in this condition...ngfonele usya***

Me:Bafo kukanjani?

Sya:Kubi bafo kubi...unamacala amaningi..elokuqala elokubulala elesbili ukubhidliza umshado wabantu..kmele ukhulume no khosi ukuthi a drope lama charges

Me:Fuck

Sya:It's bad bafo...

Me:U..unjani umelokuhle?

***He sigh***

Sya:Bafo angazi ngingachaza ngithini kodwa she's like a dead soul...amehlo akhe a empty

***Ngibrashe ubuso as my stomach tightens***

Sya:Angboni ukuthi umphushe ngamabomu bafo...

Me:Kodwa ukhosi uthe uvele wamphusha

Sya:Awcabangi ukuthi mhlampe khona ebekade bekubanga kanti ukhosi uzowa

Me:Uthini yena umelo?

Sya:Ukhosi uyena oqalile emtshela ukuthi akamfuni wase waphuma yena wamlandela wamdonsa ngegoda..wathi uyamubamba wabona esewa

Me:Ngsazokhuluma no khosi...uma ngthola ukuthi unamanga uzongazi kahle

Sya:Bafo

Me:Cha syabonga..nglahlekelwe ingane angeke ngvele ngiyeke nje kanjalo...ngyamthanda umelokuhle futhi ngyathemba ukuthi usho iqiniso...ngapha ukhosi umuntu esengimaze iminyaka...Ofcourse i trust her too

Sya:Ngzolokhu ngizama nami..khuluma no khosi adrope ama charges

***Avale ifoni ngbuyele kwi ward..ngihlangane no mamezala***

Mah:Yonkinto izoba right mkhwenyana kuzodlula

Me:Yebo mah

***Bese eyahamba ngibuke ukhosi osula izinyembezi..i sigh ngime ngimbuke***

Me:Besingekho isdingo sokuthi umubophele ukubhidliza umshado...

Khosi:Owh..uyamkhulumela?

Me:Umelo ulethwe yimi ngoba ngimthanda

Khosi:Yindaba wenza kanje philani...we just lost our damn child wena uvikela umbulali!! Ingane yethu ayisho lutho kuwe??!

Me:Khosi ngyakuthanda and i trust you...kanjalo naku melokuhle..ngyazi ukuthi ubengeke akuphushe ngamabomu

Khosi:So uchaze ukuthi mina nginamanga?

***Ngthule ngimbuke***

Khosi:Wow

Me:Ngcela iqiniso kuphela

Khosi:Iqiniso lesingaki?! Why would i lie about this philani??! Kshuthi mina ngiziwisile? Noma awungthembi?!

Me:Angshongo njalo...umelokuhle ubengeke akuphushe ngamabomu nomkhosi

***Ahleke eshaya izandla***

Khosi:Ngcela uphume la philani uye kuye lo melokuhle wakho omthandayo ungyeke mina since nginamanga...bengazi ukuthi uyamthanda yena kodwa manje sengyabona ukuthi ayy uyamthanda..uma ubuya uzothola ama phepha edivorce eklindile

Me:Askies?

Khosi:Exactly

***I chuckle***

Me:Sengzokhathala ile attitude yakho nomkhosi

Khosi:HAMBA PHELA!!! HAMBA UYE KUMELO WAKHO UFUNANI LAA??!!

Me:Ungakhulumi nami kanjalo

Khosi:Ngizokhuluma nawe inoma-

***Ngyekuye fast and grab her by her leg she roll over the bed while screaming..ngphakamise isandla avike***

Me:Angyona i boyfriend yakho mina nomkhosi uzongihlonipha uma ukhuluma nami!! I'm fucking tired of this shit!! Kade ngikuncenga khosi ngendaba yesthembu! Ngaze ngakukhulula kodwa wahlala wavuma!! Ungakhohlwa ukuthi ngingubani mina ngizokusakaza ngempama khona manje!! Ngkhuluma nawe kahle kodwa wena uyadilika kimi!! I'll fuck you up nomkhosi uma usungijwayela kabi! Aksiwena wedwa olahlekelwe ingane ngila eduze kwakho kodwa wena awukboni konke lokho!!!

***Akhale ezimboza ubuso..ngimdedele ngphume ngihambe..ngfonele uzola***

Zola:Bafo

Me:Landa unomkhosi esbhedlela khona la engyakhona

Zola:Melokuhle?

***I sigh***

Me:Yes

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MELOKUHLE

***I'm numb...sad angry and in pain...ngisho ngenkathi u andile engi hetha akaze kube buhlungu kanjena...kune lawyer lana his name is syabonga dube...i guess uthunyelwe ulonathemba..***

Sya:Kukhona okunye okushilo emaphoyiseni

Me:No

Sya:Into esizoyenza ilena..okokqala uzosho ukuthi benixabana waqala ekubamba wamkhuza wena kodwa engayeki...uzosho ukuthi she had so much anger kuye she tried hitting you but she lost i balance wambona esephansi..okomshado ungazikhathazi ngakho..philani will deal with it

Me:Uqashwe ubani?

Sya:Ngingu mngan ka philani

Me:Where is he?

***Ame angbuke bese eqoqa izinto zakhe***

Sya:With his wife

***I nod as tears sting my eyes..what did i expect? Uzoshiya umfazi wakhe bese eza kimi?? Wow melo wow...i guard lingbuyisele phakathi...i crawl into a corner ngizigoqe khona...the pain is burning me...my chest is on fire...philani i love you..but you don't trust me...***

"Eiita unawo ugwayi lapho?"

Me:Cha

"Ayikho phela indaba yakho sukuma!!"

***Ngsukume ngimbuke..unama tattoos emzimbeni ngisho ngaphansi kweso***

"I gama u asamantha but you can call me sam...ngyakbona ukuthi uyafika"

***Athinte ubuso bami and i flinch...***

Sam:Who hurt you?

Me:Angbazi

***I remember it cleary..they didn't have mecry on me..iso lami li purple and my lip is busted..***

Sam:Come with me..akekho ozokuhlupha unami..akekho ozokuthinta..ungkhumbuza usis wami omncane

***Sihlale phansi embhedeni***

Sam:Ufunani la ngoba indawo enje ayifanele wena

***I sigh and tell her the whole story***

Sam:Wow..umnakwenu akananhliziyo...uyakuthanda kodwa uphila wakhona? Fanele ngabe ulana uyakukholwa

Me:Angeke ashiye umfazi wakhe aze kimi...uyamdinga ukhosi

Sam:Bullshit..lokhosi wakhona i scam nje

Me:Wena waboshelwani?

Sam:Murder...

***Ngimbuke shocked***

Sam:Mina ngakwenza ngampela kodwa...they raped my little sister base bambulala...ngabathola one by one and made them pay..

Me:You're brave

Sam:I've been here for 28 years..kushoda lo 2 years ngoba ngiziphethe kahle

Me:Usanawo umndeni?

Sam:No...it was just me and her

Me:I'm sorry about that

Sam:It's fine...asambe syojima kancane ukhohlwe ophila abadlala ngawe

***I just smile while shaking my head..ngimbuke ephakamisa izinsimbi...that can never be me..kufike i guard***

Guard:Melokuhle you have a visitor

***Ngphume ngimlandele...umama uhleli mayengbona akhale..i hold my tears***

Mah:Ohh ingane yami!! Bakwenzeni!!!

Me:I'm fine mama

***Akhale...bengafuni angbone nginjena***

Guard:3Mn

Mah:Melo ngyazi ukuthi awusoze wenza lento abayishoyo...i trust you melokuhle...kuzodlula konke lokhu...

Me:Thank you mama

Mah:Mawuphuma lana ngfuna uhlukane nalomfana...ukuba naye kukufake ezinkingeni...kyacaca umkakhe angeke akwamukele..ngyakcela ntomb'yam..baningi abafana uzomthola omunye angfuni ukulahlekelwa uwena..

***I nod while swallowing the lumb on my throat..***

Guard:Time is up

***Lingsukumise lingbuyisele phakathi..zehle izinyembezi and i wipe them quickly!***

2 WEEKS LATER

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***It's been 2 weeks ngisejele...well they moved me to a better place and angazi ukuthi ubani lo ongisizayo! Ngacelake ukuhamba no sam and they said yes...sihlala sobabili kwi cell...ummeli ka philani uzama ngakhokonke ukuthi angikhiphe kodwa i date ilokhu ihlehliswa...ngihlezi embhedeni looking up the ceiling..ekhaya ngbacelile ukuthi bengabuyi bezongbona coz i don't want them to see me like this...i haven't heard anything from philani...i guess him and i are over...but i it's for the best..imagine being with someone who doesn't trust you! And as for nomkhosi i hate her with passion...uyimoshile impilo yami! I'm all over social media..sibuke ama comments sino sam***

Comment:ubefunani endodeni yomuntu! Aze abulale ingane enganacala ayy amantombazane!

Comment:Indlela amuhle ngayo angeke nje ucabanga ukuthi engabulala ingane

Comment:Ayybo! Akusiyo lentombazane eyalahlwa ngamalobolo? Yeka ngimkhalela!

Comment:I know this girl and angkholwa yonke lento, she's kind and loving umoya wakhe uphansi ngenyindlela she wouldn't hurt a fly

Comment:AWASHISWE AMANTOMBAZANE!

Reply:akushiswe nina bafana

Reply2:This girl is beautiful shem abamunike mina ngizomphatha kahle

Comment:She's beautiful though...udlula ngisho umamkhulu wakhona

***Usam avale ifoni***

Sam:Uzosangana uma ulokhu ufunda ama comments

Me:I can't believe that wonke umuntu ucabanga ukuthi ngiwumbulali

Sam:Don't worry...yonkinto izoba right

***Kungene i guard***

Guard:Melokuhle nglandele

***Ngsukume ngimlandele...kukhona usyabonga and...philani..besukume mabengbona***

Sya:Lisuliwe i cala...you can go home

Me:Hhu?

Sya:Ukhosi dropped the charges

***I nod...***

Me:Can i use your phone?

***Angnikeze..bese ngifonela umah ngimutshele afonele ulona anglande***

Me:Ngyabonga kakhulu

***Syabonga nods and i walk out...angfuni ngisho ukumbuka uphilani...i light ingixhophe izinyembezi zigcwale amehlo..***

Phila:Mashenge

***Ame phambi kwami his scent all over me...i won't lie he look good...so damn good..***

Me:Hi philani

Phila:Ngyaxolisa be-

Me:It's doesn't matter anymore...utheni kumkakho ukuze ngphume?

Phila:She-

Me:You know what it's fine...angfune lutho ezongihlanganisa nawe philani...pls stay away from me..kuphelile phakathi kwethu

***Angbuke with a pained expression***

Phila:Ngcela ungayisho leyonto kuhle

Me:You hurt me philani...isthunzi sami simoshekile ngenxa yakho no mkakho!! Ngigcwele kuwowonke ama newspaper coz I'm a murder! and a homewreker!

Phila:Ngisakuthanda mashenge...ngyaxolisa ukuthi angikaze ngikukholwe ikhanda lami beliphithene! Ngyaxolisa melokuhle angfuni ukulahlekelwa uwena

Me:You don't love me philani..awungthembi unjalo!! You didn't even want to hear my side wakholwa umkakho coz after all I'm just your mistress

Khosi:Uyini kanti hhe??!

Phila:Khosi ngthe hlala emotweni!!!

Khosi:Ngikukhiphile la ejele melokuhle futhi ngingakubuyisela...stay away from my man

Me:One day kuyokufica nawe...i hope uyabona ukuthi iphutha lakho lokuthi silapha

Khosi:Watch your mouth nana!! Namanje uzonya!!

Phila:Khosi buyela emotweni and stop all this nonsense

Khosi:Why umkhulumela phila mhh? Uyazi ukuthi lomuntu ungenzeni!! I lost my baby because of her!! I hate her!! Umoshe impilo yami and i can never accept you

Phila:KHOSI MARN SHUT UP!!!

Me:Phila wait awu-

Phila:I'm talking to my wife!!!

***I freeze and stare at him as he break my heart even more...athule naye shocked by what he said..ngithule izinyembezi zishisa***

Me:Right

Phila:Wait mashenge ngi-

Me:Qhubeka ukhulume nonkosikazi wakho philani I'm sorry ukuphazamisa

***Ngbone imoto ka lona ima...aphume fast eza kimi afike ame phambi kwami..abuke uphilani***

Lona:Stay away from melokuhle!! Wena nondashaza uzonya nobuso obugugile!!

***Angbambe isandla syongena emotweni...i feel chest pains and a loud sob escape my mouth..ulona athuke engbuka and i wail louder...angbambe as i fail to breath..chest pains keep on coming***

Lona:It's gonna be okk melo pls don't cry like this..breath pls..melo!! Melo!!

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