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PHILANI

***Kukhona obafo kwi ward bazongbona...ngyafuna ukwazi ukuthi ubani ongidubulile...kyacaca ukuthi kukhona ofuna ukungbona ngfile ngampela***

Me:Kukhona enikutholayo?

Zola:Mina ngsola uqhaphelani..akekho nje omunye

Sya:Kodwa bafo ukube uyena ngabe syazi manje..uyamazi ukuthi uyathanda ukuchoma

Nkanyezi:Namanje ngisasho..mhambiseni esbhedlela ngoba uphambene ekhanda!

***I sigh***

Sya:What happened man?

Me:Bengbheke endlini ngabona ukuthi I'm being followed..ngazama ukubalahla kwasho ukuthi baw2 and they fucken shot me and my car! Isbhamu bengingasiphethe ngoba bengisuka kumelokuhle

Zola:I think there's more to this mfana ngeke..uqaphela kudinga ukuthi simubambe and this time singamdedeli

Nkanyezi:Or aye esbhedlela seynhlanya

***Simbuke***

Nkanyezi:What?? Ningangitsheli ukuthi aniboni ukuthi uqaphela uyasangana ekhanda..

Sya:Uvezi usaphenya and i trust him he's the best uma kuzwa klezinto..uzomthola lomuntu..in the meantime sizovakashela uqaphelani

Me:Ngfuna ukuphuma la..

***Ngisho ngsukuma***

Zola:Hhay bafo awukalulami

Me:Usungu dokoteka zolani?

Zola:Cha kodwa-

Me:Letha iympahla zami ngyaphuma la

***Angnikeze and i change ngikhiphe ama drip..kungene udoc***

Doc:Mr zungu awukwazi ukuhamba you haven't healed yet

Me:Ngi right doc..angiqali ukudutshulwa mina this is nothing..ngyazikhipha..asambe

***Sphume sihambe syongena emotweni...i sigh thinking about mashenge..well i was cold towards her..it's just that the thought of that boy touching what's mine drove me crazy..bengfuna nokumfaka inhlamvu kodwa ngazibamba..***

Sya:Uyaku mamkhulu?

Me:No, ngfuna ukuba ngedwa

Zola:Angeke ubewedwa sikhona..let's go to our place

Nkanyezi:Uzenande uzogqema umuntu

Zola:I'm divorcing her

Sya:What?! Are you sure man? Phela nina nanithandana

Zola:Kwaphela konke lokho ngenkathi ngbona ukuthi she's poison..angfune lutho ezongihlanganisa naye leyangane iyahlanya ekhanda

Sya:You use to love that craziness

Zola:Fuck off..besides kukhona nje imbali engiyibonile

Me:I hope akyena ulonathemba ngoba naye she's crazy

Zola:Crazy like khosi?

***I chuckle***

Me:Uma ungabashiya endlini eyodwa singabuya bebulalene

Sya:Kodwa umelo one day uyonibulala...iyangthusa kina indlela aphansi ngayo bafethu ngeke..

Zola:Ungasho uliphinde..all that kindness hhayi ngeke..bafo ube watch

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2 DAYS LATER

NOMKHOSI

***I'm making breakfast for sphiwe..ngimfakele kahle bese ngyamnika nami ngihlale phansi ngidle..ukudla kwakhe uyakuchofa akadli...***

Me:Baby what's wrong?

Sphiwe:Lutho mah

Me:Sphiwe

***He sigh***

Sphiwe:Mama ubaba akasangthandi?

Me:Why ubuza lokho?

Sphiwe:He's never home mama...uma efika lana he doesn't sleep here..akasadlali nami ibhola njengakqala..akasazi ngisho kwi practise

***Ucweba izinyembezi***

Me:Boy no...ubaba uyakuthanda futhi soze wayeka ukukthanda..ukuthi uhlezi ebusy yingakho engamningi la

Sphiwe:Is it because of melokuhle?

Me:Sphiwe

Sphiwe:Cha mama...ngyazi ukuthi yini isthembu..it's when you take another wife because you don't love the first one anymore...ubaba akasasthandi uthanda umelokuhle

Me:Sphiwe usamncane therefore you won't understand..ubaba wakho uyasthanda..yes uhlezi ebusy kodwa uyasthanda..

Sphiwe:I hate her mama...uyena osphuce ubaba..i hate her

Me:It's okay baby...

***I hug him as he cry...angene uphila asbuke no sphiwe***

Phila:Kwenzenjani?

Me:Nangu ubaba

Sphiwe:I don't wanna talk to him

***Asukume agijime and go upstairs***

Phila:Mahlase

***I sigh..ngihambe ngyomphakela***

Me:Usphiwe ucabanga ukuthi awumthandi

Phila:What?

Me:Uthi you're never here futhi awusamnaki njengakqala...sengwayo ugcine nini ukuyombuka edlala kwi practise

***Abrashe ikhanda ahlale phansi***

Phila:Ngyamthanda usphiwe nawe uyakwazi lokho mahlase...I'm not neglecting him ukuthi kuningi kakhulu ebesidlula kukho...

Me:Kmele ukhulume naye

Phila:I will...usupakishile?

Me:Yes...vele syokwenzani ekhaya

Phila:Umelokuhle ube nesbonakaliso

***I want to roll my eyes***

Phila:Kumele uyogezwa ekhaya ngoba kunesnyama esikulandelayo

Me:Uyakukholwa konke lokho sengwayo? What if she hurt our son?

***Angbuke***

Phila:Umashenge akasoze wakwenza lokho...uzama ukusiza wena mahlase

Me:Angazi ngampela..

Phila:Mahlase

Me:Cha sengwayo angnayo inkinga ngo melo mina...i have accepted her kodwa akusho ukuthi sizoba ama best friends

Phila:Bengingathanda ukuthi umnike ithuba...she's a good woman..akazile ukuzobhidliza umndeni uzowakha

***Asukume***

Me:Are you gonna drive us?

Phila:Cha uknene uzonihambisa

Me:Wena uhambise umelo?

Phila:Mahlase we're not doing this right now...umelokuhle akawazi ama directions futhi akakajwayeli ekhaya..angeke ahambe yedwa

Me:Ngyakuzwa

***Angcabuze isphongo bese eyaphuma...ngidonse umoya ngiqhubeke ngidle***

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MELOKUHLE

***Sengipakishile ngaqeda..I'm wearing my long pink dress ngase ngafaka izicathulo eziphansi..asikafiki ka philani kodwa sengfisa engabe le weekend isiphelile..my family won't be happy uma bethola ukuthi ngyaphi njengamanje...i hear a car pull up outside..amn later angene uphilani efake iskhindi ne top emnyama wase wafaka ama sneakers..okay he look so damn good kwi skhindi!! Those legs...okay focus melo!***

Phila:Are you ready?

Me:Mhh

***His eyes roam around my body for amn bese ethatha iskhwama eyosfaka emotweni..ngimlandele and lock the door...ngingene emotweni and we go...engalweni ngathi akaze adutshulwe coz he's driving right now...he smell good too..***

Me:So angeke skhukume syoze syofika kini?

Phila:Uma ufuna ukukhuluma ungakhuluma mashenge mina angikuvimbile

Me:Manzini kanti kwenzenjani? Don't you love me anymore?

***He chuckles and stare at my eyes***

Phila:Aklona iqiniso lelo...ngyakthanda nawe uyakwazi lokho

Me:Awumphathi kanje umuntu omthandayo

***Ughh these damn tears!!***

Phila:Sthandwa sami

Me:You're hurting me philani...i know i was wrong..kwakungamele ngyekwi club and wear that short dress..i shouldn't have allowed that guy to touch me

Phila:Wakwenzelani lokho?

Me:I just wanted to forget about my problems...lokhu ngathandana nawe philani ayikho into elula..i have been through so much pain philani ngaboshelwa into engingayazi..on top of that you didn't stand by me..wangshiya wagijimela umfazi wakho who was lying to you...ubuso bami bugcwele umhlaba wonke u 2 weeks wonke nghlezi ejele! I had to watch my mother break ngenxa yakho no mfazi wakho...now suddenly lyaphuma iqiniso ukuthi umfazi wakho was faking it wahamba wayoxolisa sekmele yonkinto ibe right? No it's doesn't work like that...ngingaba nenhliziyo enhle manzini kodwa i will never forgive umkakho ngalento ayenza kimi...

***I wipe my tears***

Me:I don't hate her kodwa angfuni ukuba kwi same space naye..I'm only helping her ngenxa yengane and nothing else...even if you don't wanna marry me anymore klungile...

***He sigh***

Phila:Ngyaxolisa mashenge...i will always regret ukungabi eceleni kwakho at your worst...i won't force you to forgive nomkhosi ngoba she deserve all that anger you have towards her...I'm sorry for ignoring your pain mashenge

Me:She's your wife and mina ngiwumakhwapheni so angiksoli uma uthatha i side lakhe..

Phila:Ngcela ungakhulumi kanjalo...awusiyena umakhwapheni sthandwa sami...ngyakthanda mashenge lokho ngfuna ukwazi...ngizokushada ngikwenze umfazi wami..ngikukhethelwe idlozi ozungu banglethela wena empilweni yami...ngcela ungkholwe mangithi ngizohlezi ngikweseka themba lami..angeke ngvume ngawe

***Angbambe isandla ascabuze...***

Me:I miss you

***Amamatheke***

Me:Are you blushing?

Phila:Hhaybo indoda ayi blush uthini udlala ngami?

***I laugh***

Phila:Nami ngikukhumbule maqwabe

***I put on a sad face***

Me:It's hurt me when you rejected me esbhedlela

***Angcabuze isphongo..***

Phila:Ngiyaxolisa mama ngicela ungixolela

***I pout and shake my head..apake imoto asondele engbuka emehlweni***

Phila:Ngiceka ungipha amanzi e-olintshi phela mfazi ka philani

***Gosh iziqhomo zi pink from all this blushing..this man though!***

Me:Sondela uzowaphuza

***He grins asondele and take my lips into his..his kiss is slow and not rushed...he taste so damn good that i moan in his mouth..angbuke emehlweni and i blush looking away..he chuckle***

Phila:Lomsindo owenzayo uvusa abalele

***Ebuka his pants and he's hard...i laugh so hard and he joins me***

Me:Sorry yezwa..

Phila:Manje angeke ungsize?

Me:Hhayi

Phila:Lapho engizokuthola khona ngizokukhalisa uzoze uswele ukuphefumula

***My clit does ivosho asondele endlebeni and whisper in my ear so low with hus deep voice***

Phila:I will fuck you so hard mashenge...i will punish you and spank that tasty ass..i will make sure that you lose your legs coz your nana taste so damn good

***There's a river down there..i bite my lips ngihlanganise amathanga..he smirks as he watch my chest going up and down fast...***

Phila:I will take your breath away

***He starts the car and i swallow the liva..gosh I'm so flushed right now..philani is dirty yhoo..adlale umusic and humm a song..aqhubeke like he didn't say those dirty words to me***

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***We're here..i take a long deep breath...last time ngilana it's was a disaster..uphilani angbambe isandla angbuke emehlweni ***

Phila:Ukahle mama?

***I nod...angbuke and i sigh***

Me:Last time ngilana izinto azihambanga kahle

Phila:I know..this time everything will go well trust me

***Angcabuze isphongo bese syaphuma..u azana angbone kqala amamatheke ezongihaga***

Azane:Bengithi angsophinde ngikubone

Me:Well I'm here

Azane:Let's go kuningi engfuna sikuxoxe

***Ngbuke uphila and he nods..damn this man look so sexy when he is in control***

Azane:Hhayi nizobukana later asambe!

***I blush bese syahamba syekhishini...yonkinto inuka kamnandi..***

Me:Wow

Azane:Ngsizwe u Google girl coz wow...i hope it's taste good as it's look

***Sihlale phansi bese ethela i wine***

Me:No i don't drink

Azane:Ohh come on it's just a glass

***A glass won't hurt right?! Nakhona ufaka kwi nkomishi yetiye..i laugh***

Me:Uyisgebengu

***Siphuze and we carry on chating***

Azane:Angisho kabi neh...kodwa I'm glad that uphilani uthathe wena as unkosikazi wesbili hayi omunye ukhosi

Me:Hhu?

Azane:Ngiqonde ukuthi ukhethe umuntu omhloniphayo onomoya ophansi..imagine nje esenama khosikazi aw2 ahlanyayo..phela ukhosi zibuye zimshiye enjalo unenkani..while wena you're so peaceful

Me:I guess indlela engidalwe ngayo..angikwazi mina ukuthetha azane...angithandi futhi ukuthethiswa..ngithanda ukuthula too much...you can hurt me but i won't hurt you back..i will let karma deal with you...umama wangfundisa inhlonipho mina kodwa uma sengizibona ngidelelwa ngyahlehla lapho..angiyithandi indlela engiba yiyo uma sengicasukile that why ngikhetha ukuthula and walk away

Azane:Mhh that could never be me..igazi lami lihlezi li ready...

Me:Uphi uzenande?

Azane:Angboni ukuthi uzoza

Me:Why?

Azane:Baya divorce beno zolani

***Yhoo! Ulonathemba uzojabula uma ezwa lokhu..kungene umazungu ekhishini sisukume***

Mazungu:Bomakoti bakwami..ngyajabula ukunibona!

***Asihage..***

Mazungu:Mhh akusanuki kamnandi kanje!

Me:It was all azane mama

Mazungu:Abafana bami banenhlanhla shem...

***Kungene ukhosi and my mood goes from 70 to 0..***

Khosi:Sanbona

Mazungu:Koti uyaphila?

***I excuse myself ngyekwi room englala kulo izimpahla zami zikhona..i charge my phone bese ngyaphuma..nghlangane nomlisa engingamazi..angbuke emamatheka***

Him:Pictures don't do you good..Wamuhle ntokazi

Me:Ngyabonga..

Him:Ohh..ngingu qaphelani mina

***Athathe isandla sami ascabuze ngizwe igazi libanda ngisisuse fast..angbuke and amehlo akhe ayasabisa..kugcwele ukuncola..angbuke engikhumula ngamehlo***

Qaphela:Sizobonana

***Acife iso bese eyahamba..angazi why kodwa ngenkathi engthinta ngibone ubumnyama...I've never met such a cold soul..ngiphume ngyoshwa umoya..ngfice usphiwe ehlezi phandle yedwa***

Me:Hi boy

***Angbuke and gosh the hate in his eyes is visible***

Sphiwe:You're a bad woman

Me:Huh?

Sphiwe:Ubaba akasthandi sno mama ngenxa yakho!!

Me:That's not true i-

Sphiwe:I hate you!!

***Ngithi ngyamthinta he shove me off and scream..ukhosi eze egijima aqukule usphiwe okhalayo..kuze no philani and zola***

Khosi:Uyenzani ingane yami hhe??!!

Me:I didn't do anything i-

Khosi:Ungalinge usondele eduze kwengane yami uyezwa?!

Phila:Nomkhosi kahle marn!!

Khosi:Can't you see manzini?? Ingane yakho iyakhala wena ukhathelele umelo wakho? Wow what a father you are!

Phila:We're not doing this right now...angeke ngdelelwe uwena nomkhosi ungabaza amandla ami okuba ubaba ku sphiwe..asazi ukuthi usphiwe ukhalelani and already usegxeka umashenge!

Khosi:Cha ngi-

Phila:Sizokhuluma hhay manje buyisa ingane yami

***Athathe usphiwe kuye ahambe..ukhosi angbuke***

Khosi:Stay away from my child! Akmina owathi ungazali!!

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