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KHOSI

***I roll over on this cold big empty bed...uphilani didn't come back last night..akaze futhi afone...ngfake i gown and wash my face...ngvuse usphiwe and get him ready for school..u driver amuhambise eskoleni...i wonder ukephi uphilani...i thought that ngizovuka esekhona...my heart bleed mangicabanga konke ebengikuhlelele izolo...nginyuke ngyogeza and tears just come out..nghlale phansi and sob...after iskhathi ngphume and wrap a towel on my body...ngfice uzodumo ehlezi phekwe toilet seat...***

Zodumo:Ohw friend...I'm sorry

***Asondele and hug me and i just cry..***

Zodumo:i tried to tell you..

***Ngsuke kuye ngithathe isikhwama sami and start packing***

Zodumo:Wenzani?

Me:Uzoma lapho or uzongsiza?!

Zodumo:You're leaving?

Me:Ayikho into engiyhlalele zodumo nawe uyakwazi lokho!! Lomshado awukho! So pls help me pack or uvele uhambe

Zodumo:Okay calm down..

***Angsize...i pack everything ngisho iympahla zika sphiwe..call me dramatic i don't care kodwa ngkhathele uphilani..clearly usengkhohliwe...i also pack for sphiwe mangqeda ngilayishe emotweni..ngigqoke***

Zodumo:Friend

Me:I'll call you

***Ngsuse imoto and drive out in speed..uphilani is not crc about this marriage and uma nghlala lokhu ngkhala he won't see that!***

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MELOKUHLE

***I feel so warm...so safe! Ngivule amehlo kancane..ngithi ngyavuka ngibanjiwe..i scream so loud ngivuke ngiqhasha...***

Me:Shitt!!

Phila:What the...

***Avuke ecikica amehlo mina sengmile and I'm shocked..angbuke while frowning..gosh I'm embarrassed now..***

Me:Sorry..b..besengkhohliwe ukuthi..

Phila:Ulale nami?

***Ngbuke phansi..***

Me:Y..you should go..I'm sure unkoskazi wakho ukhathazekile ngawe

***Avuke azilule and i can't help but stare at his sexy body..athathe i shirt lakhe asondele kimi ebe egqoka***

Phila:Bengingadlali izolo kuhle..konke engikushilo i meant it..

Me:W..we can't..you're married philani

***He smiles eveza amazinyo akhe amhlophe***

Me:What?

Phila:Ukuzwa igama lami emlomeni wakho..ungibiza kamnandi awuphinde phela mama

***I try not to blush but i fail..ngibuke phansi..aphakamise ubuso bami and stare deep into my eyes***

Phila:Ngyacela

Me:Philani

***He smile and i just melt***

Phila:Ngyakuthanda mashenge...

***I look at him shocked..okay izolo he did say he love me kodwa bengithi yingoba uphuzile kancane..angcabuze isphongo***

Phila:Ngizokunika iskhathi ucabange...

***Agqoke bese eyaphuma ahambe...i sigh ngizilahle embhedeni...thank god angiyi emsebenzini namuhla...ngbuyele embhedeni and images of yesterday come back like a lightning. . .the way he stare deep into my eyes..indlela angbamba ngayo! I sigh...come on melokuhle! He's married!! Kukhale ifoni yami ulonathemba***

Me:Hey

Lona:Girl usalele?

Me:Well I'm awake now

Lona:Unawo ama plans namuhla?

Me:No

Lona:Okay ngzofika ntambama ngizokulanda kunale function ekhona and i don't wanna go alone

Me:Lona...

Lona:Plsss plsss

Me:Okay..

Lona:You're the best ncwaa!

***Ngvale ifoni and sigh..bese ngyasonga ngyogeza..ngiqhumise i spring cleaning...my mind drift to philani...I'm falling for him hard...i know that ushadile and yonke lento izolimaza umfazi wakhe..i know how it's feels to be cheated on and yet I'm causing that pain to that woman...ngiybuke esbukweni and sigh...yindaba yenzeke kimi lento!! Why didn't i fall for someone else...ngihlale phansi and sigh..i can see her masethola...her eyes reflecting the pain that i caused her!! I have decided..lento esiyzamayo no philani must end...i love him kodwa angeke ngibe yimbangela yezinyembezi zomfazi womuntu!***

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PHILANI

***I can't stop smiling...even when i close my eyes ngibona yena...her smell is still all over me...angkholwa ukuthi mina wonke...philani zungu usemathandweni okwesbili!! Melokuhle buthelezi...ngimamatheke kancane ngoba ngizomshada...ngfike endlini ngehle ngyongena...i tense up when i think about nomkhosi...izolo ngimthembisile ukuthi ngzobuya and she had a surprise for me fuck!! Ngivule indlini and kuthulekile***

Me:Mahlase

***Nginyuke and ku empty...ngivule i shower and bath..mangqeda ngigqoke and I get shocked mangbona ukuthi iympahla za khosi azikho..***

Me:Fuck fuck!!

***Ngigqoke ngshesha ngyo check(a) naku sphiwe kodwa akukho lutho..ngthathe okey bemoto ngphume fast ngibe ngizama ukumfonela kodwa ayingeni..ngiysuse imoto and drive straight to her workplace..ngfike emvakweskhathi ngehle ngshesha..ngingabuzi lutho ngiqonde kwi office lakhe ngiphushe umnyango ngimfica uhlezi ubuka i laptop..ngivale***

Me:Mahlase

***Aphakamise amehlo angbuke while frowning..***

Khosi:Ngingakusiza ngani?

Me:Ngyacela skhulume mahlase

Khosi:Ayikho into engizoyikhuluma nawe philani..

Me:Mahlase

***I see rage and hurt in her eyes asukume fast***

Khosi:No philani!! Angfuni ukukhuluma nawe!! Ubunawo amachance wokuthi sikhulume and you ignored them manje ngyeke!

Me:Izimpahla zakho azikho endlini yethu

***Ahleke enikina ikhanda***

Khosi:Endlini yethu?? Lena ongasalali kuyo?! Ukhuluma ngaleyondlu??!

Me:Ngicela sihambe sikhulume kahle

Khosi:Angfuni..buyela lapho oqhamuka khona..ulindele nama divorce papers

Me:Angeke kwenzeke lokho...angeke sihlukane mina nawe mahlase

Khosi:I'm sick and tired of you philani!! Awusangboni ngisho ukuthi nguwbani!!

Me:Ngicela sihambe syokhuluma ekhaya

Khosi:Cha shuthi awuzwa ngampela

Me:Noma ufuna ngikuqukule ngihambe nawe?

Khosi:You wouldn't dare...angiyindawo nawe mina...ngkhathele uwena philani so pls get out ngifuna ukusebenza

***Ngsondele kuye ahlehle...ngimbuke emehlweni***

Me:Ngyakuthanda mahlase futhi angsoze ngayeka ukukthanda..ngyazi klamalanga ngenza izinto ngendlela yami futhi ngyabona ukuthi lokho kuyakulimaza....kodwa nge weekend esiya kuyo ngizocela ubekhona ekhaya kunodaba ekumele silukhulume

***Ngsondele ngimcabuze isphongo bese ngyaphuma ngyahamba....kyacaca ukuthi umuntu westhembu yimi...i just hope that nomkhosi will accept this ngoba angeke kwenzeke ngaphandle kwakhe***

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MELOKUHLE

***I'm buying few things emall...well kade ngyobabona ekhaya and i spent the day nabo...mangiqeda ukuthenga ngihambe ngyokhokha..ngizwa ngomuntu esengthinta ngphenduke***

Me:Andile

Andile:Melo

***Angbuke up and down before staring at my lips..akhothe umlomo***

Andile:Ngcela skhulume

Me:No

Andile:Ngyakcela melo

Me:Ayikho into engizoykhuluma nawe mina...hlukana nami andile nxh!

***Ngikhokhe bese ngyaphuma and he's still following me!***

Me:Yini kanti iscefe?!

Andile:I want you back

Me:Kanti uyangidakelwa

***He smirks..akhiphe ifoni***

Andile:Uma abantu bengathola ukuthi wena ulala ne boss yakho eshadile angeke ulahlekelwe umsebenzi wakho?

***I look at him shocked..angvezele isthombe uphila emile ebsuku emnyango ngimvulela esinye uphila ephuma ekseni***

Me:A..andile...

Andile:Yes sthandwa...isinqumo sikuwe manje...it's either ubuya kimi or i post these pictures

***Aqede lapho ahambe and I'm shocked...izinyembezi zigcwale amehlo***

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***I'm in my flat now...ngiphethe ifoni ngesandla...i can't lose my job..ngcabanga ne reputation ka philani if kutholakala lento! Even his wife will be so hurt...ngimfonele***

Phila:Mashenge

***There's a big lump on my throat....izinyembezi zigcwale amehlo..***

phila:Kuhle...

Me:W...i..

Phila:Ngathi uyakhala nje mama kwenzenjani?

Me:I can't do this philani..

***Athule kodwa i can hear his heavy breathing***

Phila:Khuluma nami mama ngenzeni?

Me:We can't do this to your wife philani...lento esiyenzayo ngcela siyiyeke pls...focus on your family

Phila:Melokuhle

Me:Pls philani..

Phila:Awungthandi kuhle?

Me:Philani..

Phila:Ngphendule awungthandi?

Me:i have to go...pls don't call me ungezi futhi nalana

***Ngvale ifoni ngiyibeke ngizimboze ngesqamelo and cry..my heart is hurting...i love philani but i have to let him go***

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PHILANI

***I bang the fucking steering hard while cursing...umelokuhle can't break up with me kanjalo nje...futhi ngyezwa ukuthi ubekhala which means khona oku wrong...nge weekend ngfuna ukubika ekhaya ukuthi ngfuna ukumenza unkosikazi wesbili...kuzomele ngkhulume no khosi kqala...but first i have to speak to melokuhle..ngyamthanda lomuntu...I'm not paying attention emgwaqeni ngibone ngemoto isiza kimi fast and all i hear imsindo yama glass aphihlikayo and everything goes dark***

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