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MELOKUHLE

***Ngizongena ekhaya nge uber...ngikhokhe bese ngyehla...idk kodwa ngyafuna ukukhuluma no mama ngakho konke okwenzakalayo...ngingene ekhishini ngimfice enza i coffee..angbuke bese eyamamatheka***

Mah:Ntombazane

Me:Sawbona mah

***I hug her tight bese ngihlala phansi..angenzele nami i coffee bese ehlala phansi..she still make the best coffee..***

Mah:Kuhamba kahle kodwa emsebenzini?

Me:Yebo mah...yonkinto iyajwayeleka

Mah:Mhh...pho yini engathi kukhona okukuhluphayo emoyeni?

***I sigh...i forgot that my mother knows me very well..i clear my throat and avoid her eyes***

Me:Kukhona ebengfuna ukukukhuluma nawe mah...

Mah:Ngilalele...

Me:K..kukhona engimtholile

***Kuqale kuthulakale..ngimbuke and she's smiling***

Mah:Kwakuhle ukuzwa lokho melokuhle..besengikhathazeka ngithi uzoguga wedwa

Me:Hau mah!

Mah:Emvakokuthi u andile akushiye bengithi awsophinde uvule inhliziyo yakho..kodwa ukuzwa ukuthi uqhubekela phambili kuyangijabulisa

***I sigh and close my eyes***

Me:He's married

Mah:Ini??!

Me:Ufuna ukungishada mama...ngyamthanda

***Angbuke engasho lutho..she take a sip on her coffee***

Mah:Ufuna ukuba kwi sthembu melokuhle?

Me:Mama...

Mah:Ngfuna ucabange kahle before ungphendule...

Me:I didn't plan to fall for him mah...kuvele kwazenzakalela..ngisho ku andile akaze ngizizwe kanjena..uma nginaye everything seems easy like breathing...

***Ngimamatheke uma ngicabanga ngaye***

Me:Ngyamthanda mama...

Mah:Ngyakuzwa...melokuhle angeke ngisakuthathela izinqumo ngoba usumdala..you're 28 years old ungazithathela ezakho izinqumo kuphela mina ngizokweseka...

Me:Ngyabonga mah

Mah:Awushoke...ubani igama lakhe lomfana?

Me:Philani Zungu

Mah:Mhhh...umfazi wakhe uzosivuma isthembu?

***I sigh***

Me:I hope so..

Mah:Uma enqaba Uzokwenzenjani? Uzomyeka uphilani?

***Angboni ukuthi ngingaphila ngaphandle kwaphilani...ngyazi ukuthi ngsamazi isikhathi esincane kodwa there's this deep connection that we share***

Me:Angazi mama...

Mah:Khona uzokumela ukuba esthembini? Indoda lapho kusuke kungasiyo eyakho wedwa kunezinsuku lapho ongeke uyibone khona ulale wedwa ngoba ikomunye umnakwakho

Me:I know mama..

Mah:Uzokumela lokho?

Me:Ngizofunda mah

Mah:As long as u happy mntanami...engingakusho ukuthi landela inhliziyo yakho..if ubona ukuthi ufuna ukuba kwi sthembu angeke ngikuvimbe..kodwa ngfuna uhleli wazi ukuthi umnyango wami uhlezi uvuliwe

***Ngsukume and hug my mother tight***

Me:Ngyakuthanda mama

Mah:I love you too baby

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KHOSI

***Uphilani ubize i meeting njengoba sisekhaya...nginovalo angazi why...endleleni siza lana ubelokhu ebambe isandla sami wangasidedela...I'm nervous coz it's seems like lento ingathi...ngyongena endlini ka baba ngibafica sebehlezi vele bagcwele ko sofa..ngfike ngihlale eduze kwa zodwa***

Baba:Philani njengoba ubona nje sphelele..usungakhuluma

***He deep sigh bese ehlanganisa izandla azihlikihle..i have never seen this man so nervous...kshuthi lento inzima***

Phila:Okokqala nje ngyabonga ukuthi nikwazile ukufika njengoba bengcelile...kunodaba ekumele nilazi

***Abuke mina bese ebuka phansi***

Phila:Ngifuna ukuthatha unkosikazi wesibili

***Ngizwe amadlebe ethi tswiiii novalo lungshaya ngamandla***

Me:Angizwanga?

Phila:Umkhulu ufikile kimi kwacaca ukuthi yimi umuntu westhembu

Me:Angeke kwenzeke lokho!

Mah:Makoti!

Baba:Makoti ngcela wehlise umoya...

Me:Ngehlise umoya baba?! Uyamuzwa uphila ukuthi uthini?! Ufuna ukungilamanisa!!

Phila:Mahlase

Me:Hhayi!! Ngeke! Ngeke!

Baba:Makoti kuzomele wehlise umoya ulalele kahle umnyeni wakho..ngyazi ukuthi kunzima kuwe kodwa lesi isbonakaliso sakdala fanele ngabe nonke beniyilindele lento

***The other wives are relieved ngoba akuwona azoba esthembini...izinyembezi zigcwele amehlo ngivele ngibheke phansi***

Baba:Manje usumtholile lona abafuna umthathe?

Phila:Yebo

***My heart break into millions of pieces zivele zizehlele izinyembezi..***

Nkanyezi:Ngasho kodwa ukuthi ngathi uwena ndoda..

Baba:Manje Ucabanga ukwenzani ndodana?

Phila:Umkhulu ufike kimi ngenkathi ngisesbhedlela wathi imsebenzi yakhe lena yokuthi ngilele khona kumele ngenze izinto ngendlela...okwamanje bengifuna ukubika lokhu okunye sizokukhuluma no mahlase

Baba:Klungileke...sesizobona ngawe usuzombika kithi umamncane

***Ngisukume fast ngiphume my head is spinning...i can't believe all that crap...mina ngibe sesthembini??! Ngikhiphe kwa mhezo lowo and grab my car keys ngyongena emotweni...uphila ethi uyeza ngiyidumise ngi revese and drive away in speed...I'm hurting in a way that i want to scream so that the whole world can hear and feel this pain I'm feeling!! Ngyaybona imoto ka phila iyangilandela...i drive away in speed ngize ngyoma lapho okungenamoto khona..ngiphume and carry on walking..***

Phila:Mahlase!

***I ignore him...ame phambi kwami and i shove him off kodwa enganyakazi***

Me:Suka philani SUKA!!!

Phila:Ncono ungishaye mahlase ngishaye...

***I shove him off then hit him with my small fist esfubeni kodwa kfana nokuthi ngidlala ngeskhathi coz usamile***

Me:I HATE YOU PHILANI!!! I HATE YOU!!!

Phila:Mahlase

Me:Why do you have to hurt me like this hhe??!! Uyazi ukuthi ngyakuthanda philani why uphula inhliziyo yami kanje!! Whyy!! Whyy!! Whyyyyy!!!

***I scream so loud angbambe and i fight him off!!***

Me:Awungthandi??!

Phila:Ngyakuthanda mahlase

Me:Lies!!! LIES!!! You don't love me!!! If bewungthanda ubungeke wenze lento...you wouldn't hurt me like this philani!!!!

Phila:Ngyazi ukuthi you're hurting right now kodwa uthando lwami kuyiqiniso mahlase..angisoze ngayeka ukukthanda

Me: I'm i not enough for you?

Phila:You are...

Me:Then why ufuna isthembu philani?!!

Phila:Kumele ngyenze lento mahlase ngisho ngabe sekthiwa angfuni kodwa kumele ngiyenze

Me:Do you love her?

Phila:Mahlase...

Me:Phendula phila!! Uyamthanda?!

***Abuke phansi afake izandla emaphaketheni***

Phila:Yes

***I just nod with my lips trembling...i burst out into a sob...ngihlale phansi and cry...agobe uphila angbambe and i fight him off***

Me:So all this time ungabuyi ekhaya ungishiya ngilale ngedwa you were with her?

***Abuke phansi and i just cry..asondele engbambe***

Me:NGYEKE!!! NGYEKEEE!!!

***Ame angbuke as i cry while sitting down...it's hurts...gosh it's hurts so bad!***

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MELOKUHLE

***Namuhla i didn't receive any calls from philani and lokho akujwayelekile...ngizame ukumfonela kodwa ingabanjwa...okay now I'm worried...***

Lona:What will you have?

Me:Juice is fine...

***We're just eating cakes la ebakery store***

Lona:Udliwa yini vele?

Me:Phila hasn't called

Lona:Hlampe ubambekile...

Me:Let's forget about me...kuhambe kanjani kwi date yakho no lungani?

***She scoff***

Lona:I'm over him...

Me:Hau

Lona:U guy is not what i want...

Me:Bengithi i date ihambe kahle

Lona:Kuvele kwafika i ex yakhe izinto zaya entabeni...i ended up leaving them..wazama ukufona ngamziba

Me:So you're still single?

Lona:Kyacaca

***Kukhale ifoni yami ngiythathe and smile***

Me:Manzini

***I hear him deep sigh...okay akekho right***

Phila:Mashenge ngyakudinga

***Ngibuke ngaphandle imoto yakhe ipakile...i drop the call***

Me:Kumele ngihambe i'll be back

Lona:Okay

***Ngsukume ngiphume..u driver angvulele imoto ngingene ngemumva...uphila angbuke amehlo akhe abomvu he opens his arms and i hug him tight inhliziyo yakhe ishaya kakhulu...angicabuze isphongo***

Me:Are you okay?

Phila:Now that you're here I'm fine...

Me:Kade ukuphi?

Phila:Ekhaya ekzn...bengyobika ukuthi sengikutholile futhi ngifuna ukukushada

Me:Things didn't go well?

***He sighs***

Phila:Khosi lost it..angikaze ngambona elimele ngaleyandlela

***I sigh and get off his grip***

Me:Ucabanga ukuthi syeke?

***Angbuke engathi ngyahlanya***

Phila:Ufuna syeke?

Me:I...

Phila:Uyangthanda?

Me:Ofcourse i love you philani

Phila:Then yeka ukubuza umsangano mashenge

Me:Where is your wife right now?

Phila:Home

Me:Yedwa?

***Angbuke while frowning...i sigh***

Me:Kumele ube nomfazi wakho manzini...she's hurting right now and uyakudinga...you should be holding her and telling her that you love her...she's huring because of us...kmele azi ukuthi you will never stop loving her noma ngabe kthiwa kunjani

Phila:Mashenge

Me:Pls...driver pls take him home to his wife

***Ngivule umnyango ngiphume...i walk back to the bakery shop and watch as the car drives away...***

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