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PHILANI

***Ngibuka izingane zidlala ibhola ngaphandle...usphiwe use kzn..ngithathe ngisho ifoni yakhe ngoba angfuni abone imisebenzi ka khosi engcolile..so uzofunda ehleli khona ekhaya...ngiphethe ibhodlela ngesandla lokhu ngiphuza nje...yazi namanje angikholwa ukuthi that was melokuhle..umashenge wami? Lomuntu ubehlezi ephansi engaphakamisi ngisho izwi..bengqala ukumbona ekanje and konke lokhu ingenxa yami! Imina engimenze lomuntu..kodwa unkanyezi uzongcwabwa ekhaya coz she was zungu...kungene obafo behlale phansi bephethe utshwala..ngihlale phansi nami***

Sya:Bafo

Me:Sure

Nkanyezi:Sizoku checka nje...syazi ukuthi akukho easy

***I sigh***

Zola:Ubusuyile ukyobona unomkhosi?

Me:Mnx awungyeke zolani nginezinkinga ezibaluleke kabi mina..

Sya:Angikholwa namanje ukuthi unomkhosi engabulala umuntu nje kanjalo yazi...wamdubula ekhanda nakhona!

Nkanyezi:Nakhona waphinde waqamba amanga ngo melokuhle

Me:I fucked up gents...umelokuhle akafune lutho ezomhlanganisa nami..i broke her trust and heart..yazi mangimbuka emehlweni ngibona inzondo anayo..ngibona bonke ubuhlungu adlule kubo ngenxa yami...i just had to fuck up like every time!

Nkanyezi:Ngbona kukuhle ukuthi umnike i space

Zola:Cha..akamyeke nje straight..usudale umonakalo omningi vele

Sya:Zola..

Zola:Cha bafo cha..uyazi ngangikutshela ukuthi ungathatheli izinto phezulu! Wawsufuna ukumbulala umelokuhle wena!!

Me:Kahle kahle yini inkinga yakho?!

Zola:Inkinga yami??! Awlaleli philani! Khona manje ulonathemba akafune lutho ezomhlanganisa nami ngenxa yakho..into ongayenza ukuhlukana no melokuhle ngoba kyacaca ukuthi uyahluleka ukumthanda...

***Ngsukume ngimubambe ngama washing***

Zola:Ufuna ukungshaya??! Iqiniso lithi akaze umthande umelokuhle wena kphela ubunaye ngoba uyazi ukuthi likhulumile idlozi!! Zange futhi umkholwe uhlezi useka unomkhosi lona okwenza islima!! Uqeda lapho uthatha ingane encane uyiphuca umawayo! Yazi mhlampe bengeke ishone kthiwa awuyithathanga nakhona ubuzoyinika ukhosi!! Usangene wena bese uzokhala la uzobalisa ekbeni udlale ngo melokuhle

Nkanyezi:Zola awkahle!

Zola:Angeke phela sizolokhu sikushidabisa la wena!! I hope umelokuhle angeke abuyele kuwe..

Me:Ungazozenza ngcono kunami wena..nawe awukho perfect!! Uhlulwe ukulawula uzenande wena waze wamshiya..ubumshaya futhi unjalo so fuck off!!

Zola:Nawe futsegi baba!! Fokof marn!!

***Angdushe bese ehlala phansi...i click my tounge ngihlale phansi ngiphuze***

Me:Uzodakwa umbuso la masimba

Zola:Amasimba uwe nja!

Sya:Eyy fokof...lokhu nikwebhana engathi izingane ezincane la nxh!!

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DAY OF THE FUNERAL

MELOKUHLE

***I can't contain my tears...inkanyezi yami is gone...umama nozodumo and lonathemba bahlezi eduze kwami....ibhokisi lakhe elincane elimhlophe liphambi kwami...uphilani uhlezi naye nomndeni wakhe..I'm angry and disappointed...after all that happen unkanyezi ufihlwa kwa zungu..kodwa umama ukhulumile nami...i watch them speak phambili bekhuluma ngo nkanyezi...the same child that i didn't get to bond with...bakhuluma engathi sebemazi unyaka and that hurt coz i didn't even get to hold my baby..ngenkathi sengimbona ebhokisini she was so pale umlomo wakhe upurple...she had a tiny nose like mine...i wonder ubenamehlo anjani...uma sqeda siye emathuneni lehle ibhokisi lakhe***

Me:Nkanyezi!!!

***I sob loud watching her coffin go down..No matter how much i cry pain won't leave my body..uzodumo ungbambile beno lonathemba as i cry my heart out..***

Lona:It's okay friend it's okay...

Me:Mkhipheni phakathi mkhipheni!!! Ngyanicela mkhipheni!!!

***I wail louder and louder...ise ifakwe inhlabathi and i just wacth in silence...ngsukume ngihambe...uphilani ulokhu engbukile..ngiye ngaphandle ngfice u andile emile..avule izandla and i rush into his arms and cry..angicabuze isphongo***

Andile:Kuzodlula mama kuzodlula...

Me:Pls get me out of here..

***He nods bese engbamba ngesandla angvulele iscabha bese ngyangena naye angene...kufike uphilani ame ngasewindini angbuke..amahlo akhe abomvu***

Phila:Mashenge singakhuluma?

Me:Cha

Phila:Angeke kuthathe iskhathi eside ngyacela.

Andile:Awumzwanga ukuthi utheni?

Me:It's fine andile...

***Ngiphume emotweni ngigoqe izandla ngimbuka***

Phila:Can we talk private?

Me:Cha..konke ofuna ukukusho ungakukhuluma khona la!

Phila:Ngyaxolisa mashenge..ngyazi ukuthi sengikulimaze kaningi..ngyazi futhi ukuthi awufune lutho ezokuhlanganisa nami

Me:Kuncono ngoba uyazi

Phila:Melokuhle ngyakucela..ngicela ungixolele

Me:Philani bengikthanda..i trusted you with everything in me kodwa wena wahluleka ukukwenza lokho! Unglimaze ngayoyonke indlela philani kodwa yabona lena eyokuthatha ingane yami uvala..ushiye umgodi enhlizweni yami and i will never heal...futhi angboni ngikuxolela...angikfuni eduze kwami philani...ngithenge nendlu njengoba skhuluma we are moving

Phila:When did you stop loving me melokuhle?

***Ngimbuke emehlweni***

Me:Ngenkathi uthatha ingane yami ufuna ukuzoyikhulisa nomkakho kodwa wahluleka uku save ingane yami..i didn't even hear her cry philani ngenxa yakho..yazi namanje ubisi lusaphuma kodwa angnangane engizoyincelisa...

Phila:Mashenge ungokhethiwe wami

Me:No...not anymore..usale kahle philani

Phila:Uhamba nale bhari??

Me:Don't cause drama..umdala uma umngaka

***Ngingene emotweni u andile ashayele sihambe..ngibuke ngaphandle ewindini ngizwe ngesandla sakhe kwesami***

Andile:I'm here for you..

***I smile and nod...i don't think that I'm ready ukuba kwi relationship..u andile has been by my side all this time and ushilo ukuthi uyangthanda..but I'm not ready...***

Me:Andile

Andile:Mhh

Me:Thank you

***He smile showing his dimple***

Andile:You don't have to thank me..

***Ngimubambe isandla***

Me:I need to heal first...angfuni ukuthi sijahe izinto ngisakanje...i don't wanna break your heart coz i haven't healed yet

Andile:Ngyakuzwa melokuhle..

***Angcabuze isandla and i smile***

Andile:I'm here for you always.

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KHOSI

***bengsalele when they budge in besivusa syogeza..slinde abanye ukuthi bephume..the food we eat here?? Yho! Kuqhamuke u samantha angbuke and smirk..kthiwa uyena orula la..***

Sam:Mhh sivakashelwe u mrs zungu namuhla

Me:Ungazelaphi?

Sam:Akuwena lona owbopha umelokuhle uthi ingane yakho ishonile?

***Inhliziyo yami ime fast ngimbuke bese eyamamatheka..***

Sam:Asigezi namaxoki thina bona ukuthi ugezaphi

Me:I have to bath...i smell!

Sam:Manje ucabanga ukuthi nginendaba nalokho mina?!

Me:Please

Sam:Wenze sure ukuthi ungbekela i plate lakho or else

***Asondele engbamba igoda esmile***

Sam:Syezwana?

***I nod***

Sam:Wavuma ngekhanda njengenja

Me:Ngyakuzwa

Sam:Good..suka la!

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