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MELOKUHLE

***it's like my whole world came crushing down...i'm on the floor weeping like i have never before...uphilani angsukumise and i can feel him touching my face engimemeza kodwa my mind is far away...angdedele and run towards the house..ibuye fast ingqondo ngimlandele...my family!! umndeni ka philani***

Me:Mama!! zodumo!! Aunty!!!

***NGbone ulona esondela kimi while coughing and i rush to her***

Me:Baphi lona? baphi??!

Lona:Angboni muntu melo angboni muntu!

***Kufike uzodumo ehamba kancane bese eyawa phansi***

Me:Zodumo pls wake up!!

Lona:She's breathing

***Uphila and his brothers bephume nabanye and i rush to my mother...***

Me:Mama ngcela uvuke ngyakcela...mama...

***Kufike ama fire fighters and cops...befake omama kwi ambulance ngingene phakathi nami ngibuke ikhaya lethu liphela...after some time sfike esbhedlela silinde ngaphandle...my hands are shaking...my whole body is shaking...kufike uphila ngsukume and hug him tight i shirt lakhe libemanzi...angsule izinyembezi and hold my face***

Phila:Ngcela uqine sthandwa sami pls..

Me:My home philani...umndeni wami..

Phila:Everything is gonna be alright sthandwa sami..

Me:Your family?

Phila:Omalume balimele kancane kodwa they will be fine

Me:Ubaba?

***Adonse umoya***

Phila:ICU

***I just cry...gosh why lezinto zilokhu zenzeka kimi?! it's was suppose to be my day and now all of this...kufike uzolani angihage bese eya ku lona and they both hug***

Me:I'm sorry manzini..

Phila:Ngcela ungakhulumi kanjalo sthandwa sami..

Me:Into enami phakathi ayilungi philani...mhlampe this was a sign that you should'nt get married to me

Phila:That's bullshit mashenge...no matter what happens wena ungowami

Doc:Uhm ngicela ukbuza ukuthi isbongo ubuthelezi?

Me:Yes doctor unjani umndeni wami?? pla tell me bazoba right..

Doctor:The others are fine..but i'm sorry asikwazanga ukusindisa uzanele buthelezi

Me:No doc iphutha lelo..my aunt is not dead...right?

Doc:I'm sorry

Me:Hhayii..

Phila:Baby

***i just break down and cry...uphila angbambe***

Me:She can't leave us philani!! ngzothini ku zodumo...hhhayi!!

Phila:Ngyaxolisa sthandwa sami

***My heart is hurting...my soul is crush..aunty cant leave us...not now..not ever...ngihlale phansi and cry...this is too much..my heart cant handle this***

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PHILANI

***I feel rage all over my body...i watch as she break in my ams...her cries cut so deep angikwazi ngisho ukubamba izinyembezi zami...***

Me:Sthandwa sami pls...

***Angbuke and amehlo akhe a empty...lifeless...my heart breaks even more ngoba lamehlo angiwazi enjena...they always sparkle...i will make sure that ngyabathola labantu abenzelento...ngsukume ngfonele unkanyezi***

Nkanyezi:Sisamcinga uqaphela...ngyasola ukuthi uyena ngoba uvele wanyamalala

Me:Uma nimthola nimlethe ephila

Nkanyezi:Unjani ubaba?

Me:Isimo sakhe sibucayi...uhogele i smoke kakhulu kwavuka ne BP

Nkanyezi:Shit!

Me:Uzoba right...

***Ngivale ifoni bese kungena umama eshesha ehamba no khosi...afike kimi akhale and i hold her***

Mah:Uphi?

Me:use ICU

***she cries***

Me:Ngcela uqine mama ubaba uyasdinga...

Mah:How is she?

***Ebuka umelokuhle ohleli phansi staring into space***

Me:Kushone u aunty wakhe

***Ayekuye amuhage and they both cry...ukhosi angbambe isandla with tears in her eyes..asondele and hug me***

Khosi:He's gonna be fine...

Melo:Ufunani la uzosqedelela?

Khosi:What?

Melo:Ngyazi ukuthi awungfuni nomkhosi kodwa umndeni wami wenzeni kuwe?!

Me:Sthandwa ngcela wehlise umoya

***Asukume ame phambi kwa khosi embuka emehlweni***

Melo:Angsona islima mina khosi I KNOW YOU DID IT!!! YOU FUCKEN KILLED MY AUNT!!

Khosi:I know that we don't like each other kodwa angyena umbulali mina

***Ahleke umelokuhle like she's losing her mind***

Melo:Fuck that shit you fucken bitch wena uyinyoka lokho sonke syakwazi...ayikho into ongeke uyenze ukuze ungbone ngphuma ku philani...wenze iphutha ngokungithatha njengeslima!! you took my silence as my weakness...i will make you pay

***Aqede lapho aphume..ngbuke ukhosi who is fuming***

Me:I hope aklona iqiniso

Khosi:Ungthatha kanjani philani ngi..

***Ngphakamise isandla stoping her from talking...nglandele umelokuhle ngimfice phandle***

Melo:Ufunani?

Me:Sthandwa sami...

Melo:Umfazi wakho uyena obefuna ukusbulala philani vula amehlo!!

***Abuyele esbhedlela and i curse!***

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2 DAYS LATER

MELOKUHLE

***My family was discharge from the hospital...they are not taking the news very well..uzodumo akakhulumi...ngenkathi ngimtshela she did'nt cry and lokho kyangkhathaza...umama is broken...after all she was her only sister...bengfuna bahlale kwi flat lami kodwa uphila wanqaba coz i space sincane wabahlalisa endlini yakhe yakdala...umalume is always drunk and i know that ucabanga ukuthi utshwala kyamsiza kodwa uma esephuzile he cry himself to sleep...beno aunty bebezwana...bebehlezi bekwebhana kowa you could'nt miss the love they shared...right now i'm staring at the place i grew in...yonkinto ishile akusele lutho..imlotha nje kuphela...ngizwe ngezandla za philani zingbamba from behind...***

Me:There are so many memories here...we use to play outside kuze kubemnyama sno zodumo

***I laugh alittle***

Me:U aunty no mama beslande ngenduku..i miss her...ngfisa engathi ubekhona philani..she didn't deserve to die...she was a free person ehlezi enamahlaya

Phila:I'm sorry sthandwa

Me:Thank you for letting them stay

Phila:Umndeni wakho is also mine...

Me:Unjani ubaba?

Phila:Uzolulama ngoba esephumile kwi ICU

***I nod...soon after ngbuyele endlini..ngfice umalume ehleli ephuza..ngihlale eduze kwakhe***

MeIt's okay to grieve malume she was your sister

Zulani:Ngangmshintsha iphampasi beno mawakho...ngibagada ngenkathi umama esebenza late...angfuni ukukholwa ukuthi uvele wasishiya kalula kanjalo...ngizoxabana nobani mina manje? ngizophikisana nobani mina?

***Abuke phezulu ebamba izinyembezi***

Me:She loved you malume...indlela yenu yokulwa yayihlezi ibonisa i bond eninayo...

Zodumo:I miss her

***Asondele umalume asukume and hug her as she sob and her screams cut deep..***

Zulani:It's okay nana...

***Umama umile kuma steps wiping her face...i hold my tears ngphume ngingene kwimoto engiynikwe uphilani and drive off***

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KHOSI

***I can't believe kyana phandle...ngse mall ngizothenga iympahla eyncane zengane and i was also craving wings...the baby stuffs are just so adorable angazi nokuthi ngithatheni...mangqeda ngyothenga ama wings and eat...kukhale ifoni yami and i smile coz uphilani***
Me:Sengwayo

Phila:Mahlase ukephi?

Me:Ngse mall kodwa sengzobuya...

Phila:Okay...bengfuna ukukwazisa ukuthi sno sphiwe we're going out...

Me:Okay...have fun love you guys

Phila:Mahlase

Me:Mhh

Phila:I hope you're noy involved in any of this ngoba uma kunjalo ngizokhohlwa ngisho ukuthi ungumfazi wami

Me:Sengwayo...

Phila:Uqaphele emugwaqeni njengoba kuna pls...bye

***Avale ifoni and i sigh...ngthenge amanye ama wings bese ngyaphuma heading to my car..as i cross the road ngbone ngama light next thing i'm on the ground and i feel pain all over my body...amehlo ablurry...ngizwe izinyawo zomuntu zisondela bese eyagoba angbuke emehlweni with a smile on her face.....***

Her:I hope you die...

***Asuke and i hear the car drive off...then verything goes dark.........****

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