CH29

BURNING BLUE.
BY BELLA ROYALTY.
29.

[NTANDOKAZI NGEMA]
I decided to take a quick shower before Shaka got here and by the time I was done, he still hadn't arrived, so I went through his closet and looked for something to wear since I didn't have any clothes in this house.

After I was done I went downstairs where I was hearing some noise and the guys were there, playing some music, drinking and just conversing.
Me(smiles): Hey guys.
Them: Good morning!
Thuso: You look cute.
Me(smiles): Thank you, I see you're nursing your hangovers, do you even have enough booze since we are going to be stuck here for a while?
Sean: We ordered some.
Me: Oh okay, Kamo and Boitumelo haven't woken up yet?
Thato: Kamo was here, she said she's going to check up on you and Melo.
Me: She'd never check up on me, not after what happened last night.
Tumelo: Yo, that was weird, is she always like that?
Me: No, I think she's just mad that I'm with her crush.
Lungelo: Honestly that whole folder thing and wallpaper thing she had going on in her phone was weird, it's giving psycho, Prime is left feeling uncomfortable.

I nodded and stole a glance at him, he was busy on my phone.
Me: I will take care of it guys don't worry.
Thuso: Please do, we need that monster Ntando we saw online.
Me(laughs): You do know that, that wasn't planned right? I just reacted irrationally that's all, I'm not finna spend another couple of hours in a cell.

We laughed.
Tumelo: You were there for 2 hours.
Me: Ha! That was too much for my weak ass self.

They laughed.
Thato: But please sort your friend out, this isn't just about Shaka, even with your ex, she was like this.
Me: Maybe we have the same type when it comes to men.
Thuso: That's disgusting.

I laughed and went to my man.
Me: Hey.
Shaka: Hey.
Me: I thought you were on your way upstairs.
Shaka: I was, but I've just been invested in this instead.

He handed me my phone and he was on WhatsApp chatting with an unregistered number.

[Unknown number: Hey Ntando, it's Ty, I got your number from Sandy, I just wanted to find out if you're okay and that you and your friends arrived home safe.
Reply: Hi, Ty, thanks for checking up on me and my friends, we got home safe thank you.
Unknown number: No, problem, please tell me you won't be a stranger, you know my sister really likes you.
Reply: I won't be a stranger I promise, I kind of like her as well, she seems cool.
Unknown number: She's not the only one who likes you.
Reply: Meaning?
Unknown number: I'd rather we do this in person.
Reply: You are aware that I have a man right? I was literally sitting on his lap last night, I even introduced you to him.
Unknown number: I am well aware, that's an obstacle that can be removed by one bullet.]

I gasped In shock, what the fuck? I swallowed and looked at Shaka, he looked at me as well, I didn't know what to say, why did he even entertain this guy? I know I wouldn't have, as soon as he said he was just checking on me and my friends, I would have blocked him because I have no business talking to him and I don't even understand why Sandy would give her brother my number without my consent.

Shaka: Do you see what your recklessness has gotten us into? I'm now being referred to as an obstacle that can be removed with a bullet, Peach why ungijwayelisa ngamagintsa?

I bit my thumb.
Me: But baby how is this my fault?
Shaka: Excuse me?
Me: You're the one who replied to this guy, I wouldn't have.
Shaka: Why do they even have your number in the first place?
Me: Because Sandy wanted to know if her brother drove me home safely.
Shaka: Ntando.
Me: Yoh! Baby but you're being unfair right now, how would I have known that this guy liked me? Or that Sandy wouldn't ask for my consent before she gave him my number?
Shaka: Why were you even with strangers in the first place?
Me: Because—

I sighed, we are not about to argue in front of our friends.
Me: Can we talk in private?
Shaka: Asambe.

We both got up.
Shaka: Guys we will be upstairs, we need to talk about something.
Sean: No problem.

I followed him back to our room, he let me get in first and then he locked the door.
Shaka: I'm listening, why were you day drinking in a club with strangers? Nevermind that, why were you in a club in the first place?

Me: Baby I didn't leave the house planning on going to a club to drink in the middle of the day, I woke up to an empty bed, no note accompanied by a soft box and roses, instead there was a note that said you'd left the car for me incase I needed to go somewhere and I was hurt and disappointed baby, I thought you had forgotten my birthday, it was even worse when nobody even called me so like…

I cleared my throat.
Me: After my session with Dr. Karen I drove past the club and all I wanted was to order those sexy drinks with an umbrella, I thought I'd just have one but then I decided to have 19 shots in honor of my birthday because I felt lonely and hurt and I was under the impression that you all forgot about my day.
Shaka: You had 19 shots Peach while in that club alone, were you going to drive?

I swallowed, I don't think I was even thinking about that part.
Me: I think… I would have called you at some point to come and fetch me.

He chuckled, because that was a lie.
Shaka: Go ahead.
Me: So as I was still having a party of one, this colored girl asked if she could join me and I agreed and she asked me what was the occasion, I told her it was my birthday and since I didn't have any friends, I was celebrating alone, she told me that the club was actually her brother's club so the drinks were on the house and then we started drinking, singing and dancing, basically we were just vibing and having a great time, I didn't think much of it because we were in a public place and she's a girl.

Shaka: She could have been a human trafficker, the drinks are on the house line? Could have been a lie and the drinks that the waiter kept bringing to you guys could have been spiked, but you didn't think about that did you? You just instantly trusted this girl, you trusted someone else to
handle your drink after what Leano did to you?

I swallowed, why is speaking facts?
Shaka: Ntando this is South Africa, girls go missing everyday and you just trusted some random stranger all because she said the club was her brother's? How did the brother end up driving you home, wait why was the car stationed at their house and your phone off?

I scratched the back of my head because this was about to get worse.
Me: Uhm… so I kind of started venting to her, which led to me breaking down.
Shaka: Oh great! Some stranger knows our business now, should we expect a fake account spilling the tea?

Oh God!
Shaka: What exactly did you tell this girl?
Me(nervously): Uhm…
Shaka: Oh for fucks sake Ntando why are you so irresponsible and reckless? Didn't you learn anything from Nandi? You confided in her as a friend and what did she do? Did she not drag your name through the mud and then you go and tell some stranger you met at a club your business? What the hell is wrong with you? What exactly did you tell her?
Me: Baby I swear I didn't tell her the explicit dangerous parts about what you guys did to Leano and Lerato and what you did to your father.
Shaka: But you told her everything else?

I bit my lip.
Shaka: Didn't you say you didn't want anyone else knowing your business because you didn't want to be referred to as a victim? Yet you're going around in clubs telling some stranger? Ntando are you okay up here?

He pointed at my head.
Me: Baby I was drunk, I was just venting and next thing I had a mental breakdown, I didn't mean to tell her that, I doubt she even still remembers, I made a mistake baby I get that!
Shaka: How did you end up at the house?
Me: Well when she saw that I was breaking down she offered to take me to her house to sleep it off before I returned to the apartment.
Shaka: Yeses! You are so irresponsible! Why couldn't you call Ndalo to fetch you? Why didn't you even try to call me? Because I tried to call you but your phone was off.
Me: It fell inside the ice bucket baby and I honestly didn't think about any of you at that moment.

He looked at me with a disappointed look and I felt that I had disappointed him.
Shaka: Yazi Ntando, I don't understand you, one would think you'd be self aware after everything you've been through, one would think you wouldn't be so trusting after everything you've been through, what if you were taken there? What if in that house you were taken advantage of while you were passed out? Ntando, why are you stressing me out like this? While I was out there trying to make your day special wena you were napping in strangers houses, do you want to die or something? Are you trying to test if you disappeared again would I find you? Do you know that you were in a gangster's house where the signal is lost immediately when you enter the house? For hours I couldn't even track you, I was losing my mind, next the car was driven to the mansion, 20 minutes before you decided to drive back home.

What? I didn't know that.
Shaka: Yes your phone fell in the ice bucket, the signal was jammed because even this girl has a device that jams the signal so that's why you were not receiving calls or texts, something could have happened to you because of your recklessness!
Me: Baby I didn't know
Shaka: How do you even sleep like a log at a stranger's place? Ntando nizofa!

I wiped my tears.
Me: It won't ever happen again baby I swear, it won't I promise, in fact I'm no longer interested in being friends with this girl, I am really sorry baby.
Shaka: And then you have the nerve to blame everything on me Ntando? Saying I should have communicated? What is this?

He showed me his texts.
[10:25am: Peach, around 12pm please make sure you're back at the apartment, I haven't forgotten that it's your day today, I will be taking you out so there's a glam squad that will be there to prepare you for the date, I'll tell you when you can start getting dressed, I'll send Ndalo to fetch you.
12:32am: Baby where are you? Ndalo says you're not at the apartment and she's just arrived at the apartment with the glam squad]

Oh my God!
Shaka: Because of the people you chose to surround yourself with, these texts never got to you because the signal was jammed. Whose fault is it that you ended up attending your birthday dinner in jeans and a tshirt? It's me right? Yet I sent the first text very early.
Me: Baby I'm really sorry, I didn't know okay?

Shaka: You hurt me Ntando when you said that last night, you made me feel guilty yet I tried! I tried reaching out to you, Ntando I had planned your day to the T, I would have never let you attend your own birthday dinner looking crusty but you made it sound like I lacked communication skills, and then I heard you speaking to your new friend, do you know how that made me feel? Like I had failed you Ntando, and I hate doing that to you, all I ever want to do is to make you happy.

I wiped my tears, I'm such a terrible person.
Shaka: I went through all of this trouble, bringing your friends and family in one place because I wanted to cheer you up because you've been through a lot and I figured you'd be comforted by the presence of familiar faces and seeing your mother whom you haven't seen in months, but you made me feel like a failure all because of a damn outfit Ntando and nalapho whatever feelings I was feeling, I pushed them aside and made sure you ended your night on a great note but you couldn't do that, you just had to embarrass me in front of your friends and family, you don't know how you made me feel with your comments even when Ndalo tried to tell you that we tried to get in touch with you.

He kept quiet for a while and I was just a crying mess.
Shaka: Like you were so angry at me that you even refused to ride with me to the club, like really Ndando?

Oh God!
Shaka: I hate the way you made me feel last night, I'm a person as well Ntando I have feelings, I do feel hurt as well, it's hurts to not be appreciated, it's hurts to not be appreciated for your efforts, this is my first time as a boyfriend, I'm learning everything from scratch, I won't be perfect, maybe you're right I should have woken you up with breakfast in bed and told you that I had a surprise for you please make sure you're at home around 12, but Ntando I had to be at school, I was writing! I just—

He shook his head.
Shaka: You hurt me and I just don't even want to even unpack what you said on the call earlier, just— I'm done with this conversation, I'm getting a headache already, I really thought I would have been a lot calmer the next day, but I just got angry all over again.

He attempted to unlock the door and I held his hand.
Me: Baby please don't go? Can we please just talk about this ,I don't want us to be like this. I hate it when we are not okay! Please baby! I know that you're angry at me, but please give me a chance to make things right.
Shaka: And you think an apology is going to make me feel less shitty as I do right now?
Me: Please just sit down?

He sighed and sat at the edge of the bed while I knelt in front of him and held his hand and kissed them both.

Me: I hear you and I understand where you're coming from, your reaction and feelings are valid baby, and you're right an apology won't make me fix anything neither will it make you feel less shitty.
Shaka: Can you please get up from the floor, it's already cold, you'll catch a flu.
Me: I'm okay, please look at me.

He looked at me.
Me: You're right, yesterday I was reckless and irresponsible, a lot could have happened, and it would have been my fault because I am way too trusting, and as a result ngikujwayelise nabantu abayingozi and I'm going to try to make sure they don't get over familiar with you and disrespect you any more than they already have, I'm going to cut ties with that Sandy girl, I promise.

Shaka: I'm not trying to control you Ntando, I'm not trying to dictate who you should befriend or who you shouldn't befriend, I just want you to be careful, obviously I can't be everything to you, you still need a life outside of this relationship I just want you to be careful, I don't want you to be hurt baby, you've been hurt enough already.

I nodded, he was a lot calmer now
Me: I know baby, I know that you have my best interest in your heart.

He nodded while I exhaled.
Me: I feel so ashamed right now, to think you stuck it out the whole night, suppressing your feelings all because you wanted sure I had a great night, I cannot believe I did that to you Shaka—

He shot me a look, hawu he's been calling me with my name nje naye?
Me(smiles): I'm sorry, I cannot believe I did that to you baby, you didn't deserve that, I guess I was just being a little selfish brat, deep down I knew you'd never just set me up like that, you're the most organized person I know, I was just projecting, trying to shift the blame and I know you didn't deserve that, I'm so sorry sthandwa sami, truly I am, I never meant to hurt you, in fact it breaks my heart that I even did, you don't deserve that sthandwa sami, like you don't know how much I appreciate you, in the midst of chaos you've been the only things that's been consistent in my life, you put me first and the fact that you slept with a broken heart because of me, it's messing with me right now.

He wiped my tear with his thumb.
Me: So baby this is me down on my knees, humbling myself and asking for forgiveness, I know I don't deserve it but baby Ngiyakucela, I appreciate you, I appreciate your efforts, yesterday was the most beautiful day of my life, nobody has ever gone to such extents to make me feel loved and special, but you did sthandwa sami.

He smiled.
Me: Shaka ngiyakuthanda okay? And this is like my first real relationship as well so I'm bound to make mistakes and I know it's no excuse but I'm going to try and be a better person, to appreciate you more, ngicela ungixolele sthandwa sami, I am really sorry.

I wiped my tears and he helped me up and gave me a tight hug while rubbing my back.
Me(crying); I'm so sorry baby.
Shaka: It's okay okay Peach, I forgive you, it's water under the bridge, it's okay baby, we are okay, we are okay, I promise.
Me(crying): You're the last person I'd want to hurt, baby.
shaka: I know sthandwa sami, I know baby, please stop crying.

I pulled away from the hug and wiped my tears, my hands were literally shaking.
Shaka: Look at me baby.

I looked at him.
Shaka: I love you okay, and I know you'd never intentionally hurt me.
Me(smh): I would never, baby. The fact that you even slept with a heavy heart izolo because of me is what's breaking my heart.
Shaka: It's okay sthandwa sami, sidlulile lapho.
Me(sniffles): Thank you.

He cupped my face and kissed my lips making me feel dizzy, ay man that's never happened before.
Me(moans): Baby.
Shaka: Sthandwa sami.

He was on my neck, planting wet kisses.
Shaka: You're not up to it?
Me: I am baby, I'm just not interested in the foreplay.

He chuckled.
Shaka: Sekunzima ngaleyondlela sthandwa sami?(Are you that turned on?)
Me(nodding): Mmh-mmh.(Yes)
Shaka: Okay, no foreplay.

[SHAKA 'PRIME' ZWANE]
Sfiso might have turned out to be a shitty father in the end but there was a time where him and I were really close and when I became sexually active he taught me a few things.

He told me that in a relationship things won't always be rosey, there will be times where your woman or girlfriend will disrespect you or do something that hurts you, and you'll feel enraged, to a point where even when she apologises it won't be enough, in a case like that never lose calm to a point where you end up raising your hand on her.

A real man doesn't raise a hand on a woman, a real man doesn't raise his voice at a woman, a real man takes back his control in the bedroom.

Peach really messed me up last night, if there's one thing I hate, it's my efforts being downplayed, Peach downplayed my efforts to make her day special, all because of a stupid outfit that she admitted today that it was her fault.

So from today, whenever she thinks of disrespecting me like that ever again, she will look at her wrists, place her hand on her neck, touch her lips with her fingers, the pain will go straight in between her legs.

I carefully laid her down on the bed without breaking the kiss, she was naked before me while I was left in my briefs.

I broke the kiss and looked at her for a while.
Me: You hurt me Peach
Peach: I know baby and I'm sorry really I am.
Me: I know sthandwa sami, I can see it in your eyes that you are really sorry.

I walked to the closet and pulled out a box, I took out handcuffs.
Me: Do you trust me?
Peach: Yes I do.

I handcuffed both her hands on the headboard.
Me: Is it painful?
Peach: No.
Me: Just try not to strain yourself otherwise you'll bleed.

I went back to the box and took out a black riding crop whip and her eyes widened.
Peach: Baby…
Me: I did tell you that an apology wasn't going to make me feel less shitty than you made me feel yesterday.
Peach: So… so you're going to— Aaah!

She screamed as a whip landed on one of her nipples.
Peach: Baby—

Another landed on the other nipple, she arched her back.
Me: This room isn't soundproofed baby, we have guests, remember that or do you want me to gag you?
Peavh: Please gag me I won't be able to keep it down.

I looked for a gag and closed her mouth, before she could even settle, I whipped her stomach and she whimpered, I whipped her thighs, inner thighs, even her coochie, the pleasure I felt whenever the whip landed on her skin leaving a mark was exhilarating.

I just kept on whipping her until whatever anger I felt yesterday when I could not get ahold of her, to her being dropped off by some guy, to what she said about me lacking communication skills just because she had to have her birthday dinner wearing jeans, her conversation with her mew friend, the way she kept avoiding me even going as far as refusing to drive with me, to that guy who said I was an obstacle that could easily be removed, I just kept on whipping her.

I felt satisfied after that, I threw the whip away and got on top of her.
Me: I feel much better now, okay?

She nodded with tears in her eyes and I removed the gag and devoured her lips, deepening the kiss as I rubbed myself on her and she moaned as I pushed myself in.
Peach: Holy shit baby what is that, why does it feel like that?
Me: Good or Bad?
Peach: Go… Good oh my God!
Me(Smiles): Then happy birthday baby.
Peach: Oh my God, baby! Please tell me what it is?
Me: I have a reverse Prince Albert, a frenulum piercing and I added another Jacob's ladder piercing, I figured I should decorate your gift wirh some shinJewelry.
Peach: Mmh, can I see?
Me: Later, for now I just want you to feel it.

I went all in, I bet the whole house heard that scream and the worst part is that she couldn't even use her hands, I had full control of her.

Me(chuckles): Baby you're too loud..
Peach(crying): I don't care baby, these people don't know what the f*** you're doing to me right now!

I began thrusting in and out of her and she just lost it, I kept pumping in to her while rocking my hips back, forth and sideways, I brought her knees up to my shoulders so that she could really feel all of me and my new accessories inside her and it was glorious! Totally worth the worth the pain.

Peach(moans): Baby! Baby! Yoh! Please…
Me: The only words I'm interested in hearing from you is the words 'I'm sorry baby'
Peach(nodding fast): Okay, okay I'm sorry baby, really I am! Oh my God!

I picked up the pace and she tried to free her hands which only hurt her
Peach(screams): Baby I'm sorry! I mean it! I mean it! Oh my God! Just… please slow down! Awemah! Shaka no!

I slowed down but gave her deep strokes.
Peach(crying): Yoh…Shaka… baby? Mmh-mmh! Baby ngiyaxolisa! Cela ungixolele! (Please forgive me)

I kissed her lips.
Peach(crying): Ngiyakucela sthandwa sami.
Me: I forgive you.

I picked up the pace and she screamed out loud and I could feel that she was close and before she could explode I pulled out, denying her an orgasm, the way she was so angry.

Peach(crying): Baby that's not fair, I said I'm sorry njena, I will never hurt you like that again! I won't be reckless and irresponsible again and angeke ngiphinde Ngikujwayezise ngamagintsa, baby ngiyakuthembisa! Just let me cum, ngiyakucela!

I flipped her over and she was on her knees, oh those wrists are going to definetly hurt, I slid in from the back, she couldn't even use her hands to balance, I held her waist with my other hand, pushing her down and with the other hand I grabbed a fistful of her braids and slammed into her hard, and the room was filled with her screams and my muffled groans accompanied by our bodies slapping into each other.

I slowed down as we both came and I let go of her braids, she was breathing heavily and so was I, I pulled out and slammed into her again.

Peach(begging): Baby… Ngiyakucela!
Me: Uyazi angithi ukuthi ngiyakuthanda Ntando?(You do know that I love you, right Ntando?)
Peach(biting her lip):I know baby, I know.
Me: Will you hurt me again?
Peach(shaking her head): No, sthandwa sami angeke ngiphinde I promise.(I won't ever hurt you again)
Me: Will you act recklessly and irresponsibly ever again?
Peach: No, no, no!

I was aksing all of these questions while thrusting in and out of her.
Me: Promise?
Peach: I promise! I promise! I promise! Aaaah!

She came crashing hard, her knees finally giving out, she was trembling, her whole body was, I laid her on her back and she was squi***ng and could barely say a word, I kissed her lips and rubbed myself on her.

Peach: Ba… baby… please….

I filled her up.
Peach(crying): Awemah! Shaka ngiyaxolisa!
Me: And I said I forgive you.

I said as I slammed inside her hard and her screams were now muffled because she was biting her lower lip trying to suppress them, I choked her as I picked up the pace until we both came with her still saying "She's sorry."

I slowly pulled out, dripped in sweat and laid next to her trying to catch my breath.

Me(panting): Yeses! Phew!

I remembered she was still handcuffed, I took the key and unlocked her hands, she laid on her stomach, burying her head on the pillow.

Peach: Mmh-mmh, I can't feel my legs.

I touched her, bringing life to her legs that wouldn't stop shaking.
Me: And now?
Peach(barely audible); I meed a moment, oh my god! Cishe ngafa namhlanje!
Me: Okay, I love you.
Peach: Go away!

I laughed as I got up and got dressed, I was thirsty like I had just ran a marathon, I left the room and went downstairs, as soon as I emerged these guys started making noise and I laughed.

Me: Don't be weird.
Lungelo: What did the poor girl do you to Prime? She was literally begging for her life man!
Tumelo: Is she even still alive?
Thuso: I've never been turned on by just listening to people getting into it! Yeses Shaka! Kule weather?

I gulped a bottle of water.
Lungelo: Kufanele unxanwe sathane!(It makes sense that you'd be thirsty you Satan!)

The water choked me because I was laughing.
Me: Yall better behave when she gets here.
Thato(laughs): You think she'll come down? I don't think her legs are still working.
Lungelo: I just want to know yenzeni ingane yabantu! (What the poor girl did to you)
Me(smiles): Ask her.
Thuso: My poor friend!

We laughed.
Me: Damn I'm starving! I worked an appetite in there, let me call her to make me some breakfast.

They all started making noise, saying I should let her rest instead, I'm the one who should be making breakfast for her because I finished her.