Deadly obsession ,Chapter 9
SUKUI opened the front door and walked inside. I could hear the sound of the TV coming from the living room, and as I walked in, I saw Zibusiso sitting on the couch with his friends. They all turned to look at me as I walked in, and Zibusiso stood up.
Zibusiso :"Suku, what are you doing out so late?" he asks. "You know I don't have a problem with you going out, but really? Coming back at this time?"
I just looked at him, unable to find the words to explain myself.
"I'm sorry," I say, walking towards him and giving him a hug.I felt like crying, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. I was at a loss for words.
Me:"I'm sorry for disobeying you," I say, feeling a sense of remorse. "I promise from now on, I'll stay in the house. I won't go out anymore, I promise." I say, my gaze still fixed on a distant point in space.
Zibusiso:"Suku, are you okay?" Zibusiso asks, gently pulling me away from the hug. He looked at me with concern, and I finally met his eyes. I nodded looking into his eyes, and he looked back at me with concern. I took a deep breath and finally said the words.
Me: "I should have listened to you." My voice caught in my throat, and I felt a lump forming. I wasn't sure if I could explain what had happened.
Zibusiso :"Suku, did something happen?" Zibusiso asks, his eyes wide. I could tell he was worried about me.
I took a deep breath and tried to find the words to explain what had happened.
Me:"On our way back with my classmates, a car pulled over," I say, my voice shaking. "Two guys got out of the car, and they were holding guns."
Zibusiso :"What?" Zibusiso asks, his eyes wide with concern. "Did they hurt anyone? Or you?"
Me:"We all ran for our lives," I say. "I was about to call you, but I tripped and my phone fell. I couldn't pick it up in time. I found a place to hide, but..." My voice shook as I struggled to finish the sentence.
Zibusiso :"But what happened?" Zibusiso asks, cupping my face with his hands. "Please, Suku. You can tell me anything."
I took a deep breath, trying to steady my voice.
Me:. "They... he did the same thing to me again,it happened again." I could feel my voice breaking, but I forced myself to continue. "I-I'm so sorry, Zibu. I tried to fight back, but I couldn't. he..." I couldn't bring myself to finish the sentence. Tears were streaming down my face.
Zibusiso hugged me tightly, and I could feel him shaking.
Zibusiso :"It's okay, Suku," he says. "It's not your fault. You didn't do anything wrong. You're safe now, and you're here with me. I won't let anything happen to you again."
I sobbed into his shoulder, and he held me close.
Me: "I-I just feel so broken," I say. "Like I'll never be the same again."
Zibusiso let me cry until my sobs turned to hiccups. He picked me up and carried me to his bedroom. He gently laid me on the bed and stood over me, looking down at me with concern.
Zibusiso :"Do you want to tell me everything?" he asks. I shook my head, unable to speak. I felt numb and broken. I didn't know how to explain what had happened, or how I was feeling.
Zibusiso seemed to understand. He helped me up and walked me to the bathroom. He turned on the shower and helped me unddress. Then he helped me into the shower, and stood there while I washed myself.
When I was done, he helped me out of the shower and dried me off. Then he helped me put on some fresh clothes. I felt a little better, but I still felt numb and broken inside. Zibusiso seemed to sense this, and he wrapped his arms around me in a tight hug.
Zibusiso :"I'm sorry ," he says. "I wish I could take your pain away."
He held me like that for what felt like an eternity, until I finally fell asleep.
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When I woke up, I could feel the sunlight streaming through the window and hitting my face. I turned my head and saw Zibusiso sitting in a chair next to the bed, looking at me.
Zibusiso "Morning," he says, smiling softly. "How are you feeling?"
I sat up slowly, still feeling a little groggy from sleep.
Me:"I'm feeling okay," I say, my voice scratchy from all the crying.
Zibusiso : "I'm so sorry, I don't know what to say except I'm sorry for letting this happen."
Me: "it's not your fault. "
He looks in my eyes for a long time and I know what he wants to ask. I'm scared to tell him the things that happened to me. I look down in embarrassment.
Zibusiso: " can you trust me for once suku and let me in?". He asks in a low tone, I hear fear in his voice.
I look up at him. As tears fall from my eyes. He wipes grabs my cheeks wiping the tears with his thumb.
Zibusiso : "It's okay I'm here, you can tell me, don't shut me out "
Me: He... he...he.. molested me Zibusiso ,My father molested me when I was 16 years old after our mother left us..
I feel his hands instantly heating up and he clenches his jaw hard trying to control his anger.
Me: "i turned to be his wife,He would beat me up,He would put his finger in me, make me jerk him off, force me to kiss him, force me to strip nasty & disgusting things for him."
I feel his hands getting more tense. His boiling in anger.
Zibusiso : "That's son of a bitch." He says in low tone clenching his teeth hard.
Me: "Everyday when I get on my periods, however he would make me take some pills to stop them. My own father would make me wear those dirty lingeries..."
I have hiccups I can't even talk. He grabs my face tight.
Zibusiso:" I'm so sorry. "He whispers through his teeth.
Me: "He would alway penetrate me,Everyday .Any yesterday it happened again,It was dark,I didnt see the person's face.He forcefully penetrated my arse."I weep as the thought of them came flashing ,
He grabs my tight and hugs me
Zibusiso:" I'm so angry I want to kill him your father and the bastard who did that to you so bad. I'm so angry for not trying hard to stop you from going out. "
I feel him shaking, that's how angry he is.
Me:"its all my fault,I was stubborn I should have listened to you"
Zibusiso : "Ngiyaxolisa Suku,for everything you wentt throgh at a young age,No child deserves to go through that.I'm sorry. No one is ever going to touch you and hurt you ever again. Nothing has changed,you are still the Suku I like, I love you with all my heart. "
He wrapped his arms around me, and I clung to him. I let the tears fall, knowing that I was safe with him. He held me tight, as if he was afraid to let me go.
I cried until there were no more tears, and when I was finally spent, I just rested my head against his shoulder. I felt safe and comforted in his arms, and I knew that I would be okay.
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ZIBUSISO
What came out of my mouth next was something I had never expected to say.
Me:"I love you," I say, my voice shaking. "Not because of what happened last night, but because I always have."
I wasn't sure why I said it then, but it felt right. Maybe it was the vulnerability of the moment, or maybe it was the weight of everything that had happened to her.But I know that I meant it, though. I had loved Suku for a long time, and now I know that I loved her even more.
Suku looked up at me,and say
Suku:"You can't Zibusiso ,you can't love me.I'm dirty---"
Me:"I don't care ,but to me you not dirty I don't see someone who is dirty to you,I see a strong kid,you are my strong kid and nothing will ever change how i feel for you Suku.I love you."
I plant a kiss on her forehead,she looks down not saying anything.
The sound of my phone ringing made us both jump. I pulled it out of my pocket and saw that it was Andile. I answered the call.
Me:"Hey," I say. "I'm not coming in to work today."
Andile:"Are you okay?" Andile asks, his voice concerned.
Me:"Yeah, I'm fine," I say. "I just need a day off."
Andile:"Okay," Andile says. "I hope everything's okay. Let me know if you need anything."
I hung up the phone and turned back to Suku.
Suku:"You should go to work," she says, shaking her head. "You don't need to stay here with me."
Me:"I'm not leaving you like this," I say. "I'll stay with you until you're okay."
She sighed and looked at me, a mix of emotions in her eyes.
Suku:"I appreciate it," she says . "But I don't want you to miss work because of me"
I reached out and took her hand, squeezing it gently.
Suku:"I'll be fine," she says. "I'll call you if I need anything. And besides, mam hilda is coming over later. She'll be here with me."
I hesitated, not wanting to leave her.
Me: "Are you sure?" I ask. "I don't want to leave you alone."
Suku:"I'm sure," , giving me a small smile. "Go to work, and I'll see you when you get home. Okay?"
I nodded and stood up, feeling a little reluctant to leave.
Me:"I'll call your school and tell them you'll be taking the whole week off," I say. "That way, you can get some rest. And I'll see you tonight, okay?"
She nodded and closed her eyes, snuggling into the pillow. I took one last look at her, then walked out of the room and closed the door behind me. I took a deep breath and tried to push down the worry that was swirling in my chest. I needed to focus on work, even though all I wanted to do was stay with her.
I picked up my phone and called the school, letting them know that Suku would be taking the week off.
I headed to Zamo's room, where I found her sitting on her bed playing games on her tablet.
Me:"Good morning, buddy!" I say, smiling at her.
Zamo:"Good morning, Uncle Zibu!" she say, looking up from her tablet and grinning at me.
I sat down next to her and we played games together for a while. Finally, it was time for me to go to work, and I kissed her on the head.
Me:"I'll see you when I get home," I said. "Be good for Sister Suku, okay?"
She nodded as I left the room. I felt a bit of a lump in my throat as I closed the door behind me. I knew I had to focus on work, but my mind kept drifting back to Suku and what she had told me. It made me angry to think about someone hurting her like that.
As I drove to work, my thoughts kept drifting back to Suku. I wondered if she was okay, if she was resting. I hoped that she would be able to heal from this.
I arrived at work and tried to put Suku out of my mind. I had a job to do, and I needed to focus on that. But it was difficult to shake the feeling of worry that was gnawing at me.
The day dragged on, and I found myself checking my phone often, hoping for a message from Suku. But there was nothing.
to be continued …
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