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TWO QUEENS IN MY CASTLE 19A WEEK LATER
KABELO
I'm still undecided about a lot of things in my life. Although my mom is at rest, I still feel like there's something weighing on me that I don't know how to get rid of. Chopper still hasn't shown up and I don't know if that's a good or bad thing. I've opened my stall now and the customers are showing up for me. I don't know if it's pity or what but I'm not complaining. Ora just came back from school and we're still not in good terms but she's my sister and the only one I have left close enough to call family. She puts her backpack on the ground and takes an apple.
"You're going to pay for that," I say without lifting my head up from my phone.
"I know. So is there anything I can help you with? I don't have a lot of school work today," she says.
"You never really assisted me. Why start now?"
"I've realised I was unfair and I really need to do better. Please don't shut me out because I'm trying here."
"You can prepare to cook supper. We didn't cook last night and I don't think I need a takeaway again," she nods and takes her bag, going into the house. I've since been going through my socials and jumping from Yolanda's profile to Thandeka's, visa versa. If confusion was a person, that'd be me.
I'm into both of them and I can't lie, it's really hard to make a decision. With Yolanda, I was the one at fault and she didn't do me wrong. Our love was pure and wasn't really based on materialistic things. Thandeka on the other hand is giving me the support structure I need. She only wants what's best for me and I can't ignore the gradual growth of my feelings for her.
I've since realised my mistake of stringing two women along when I was with Yolanda but this situation feels different. Both women know that I'm into them but they don't know that I can't choose.
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THANDEKA
My day was going just fine at work until Dumisani showed up. I haven't seen him in weeks and I was hoping to never lay my eyes on him again. He comes bearing gifts, not that they matter at this time. I'm done with a patient and I was about to take my lunch, I guess he has great timing.
"Hey," he stands behind me as I have my back facing him. I remain silent, clearing the desk I was working on.
"Baby," he persists.
"I'm working. What the hell are you even doing here?"
"I came to apologize. I believe you've utilized this time to calm down a bit. Can we talk?"
"I've got nothing to say to you and I'm not willing to listen either."
"I was wrong to cheat on you," he says.
"No actually you did me a favor. Thank you so much for willingly taking yourself out of my life. Get out before I call security," I'm losing my patience.
He places the flowers and the gift bag on the desk. I throw them back at his face and push him away.
"I will not get a warning because of you. Get the hell out of here because I do something that'll cost me my job," I say pointing at the door. It sickens me that he went for someone I know and even if I loved him, I wouldn't have been able to forgive and forget.
"So you really love the man?" He's referring to Kabelo.
"Why do you care? It's none of your business but if there's one thing you must know, I'm so over you."
"So our relationship meant nothing to you?"
"You mean our toxic-ship? Don't irritate me more than you've already done."
"It's fine I'll go but I hope you don't regret your decision," he walks out.
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JIMMY
Chopper has been staying at my place for the past week and it's unusual of him. He likes his own space and doesn't want to lose any clients for his money lending business. He hasn't really been open to me about what brought him here and I'm worried about his behavior.
"How is the case going? When is Kabelo appearing in court?" He asks.
"I dropped the charges."
"You did what?" The Chopper I know is back. He's surprised and mad at the same time by my decision but I'm not going to explain myself to him.
"It felt right. At some point I was wrong and you've already punished him enough. I lost Ora because of your actions."
"It's not like there was any future between the two of you. She's a child and you're over 30 so stop it. There are plenty of women your age, grow up," he clicks his tongue.
"You're one to talk about growing up. You raped a woman old enough to be our mother so don't you dare talk to me like that."
"I'm your brother. Watch your tone when you speak to me," he's on his feet.
"Then act like one. I honestly thought you're coming okay with your past traumas but I guess I was wrong."
"Don't talk about my past," he turns his back at me.
"Why not? You're a bloody rapist and a murderer. You should go get checked up again before you spiral out of control," I say.
"I'm fine. I only did what I did as revenge. Plus you didn't want me to touch your precious ex girlfriend so I opted for her mother instead. I would have went for the other girl but I didn't know her relation with Kabelo at that point."
"You're sick," I'm disgusted at how he doesn't see fault in any of this.
"Yeah just like dad was sick? Just say it, say that I'm just like him," he snaps. I didn't want to talk about our father because he was a good for nothing man who tormented us. He sexually assaulted women and always found a way to justify his actions. I don't know for sure how Chopper ended up exactly like him but I want no part in it.
"I should go see him maybe."
"Dad?"
"Yes. It's been years now and I think I'm ready to finally ask him why he killed our mother so brutally."
"That still doesn't change the fact that you ended up like him," I shake my head.
"Maybe he'll have an answer to that," he says.
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