CHAPTER 42
ZINHLE DUMAMy phone rang. I stretched my hand, taking it under the pillow, and answered with my eyes closed.
Me: Mhh?
Caller: Hi Zee! Girl, are you still sleeping?
I checked the caller ID with one eye and realized it's Keitumetse.
Me: Oh hi, bbes.... yeah, I'm tired.
Keitu: Mhh, okay! I sent you some pictures.
Me: Pictures?
Keitu: Yes... those two men, I want you to tell me who to take.
I laughed thinking of how she told me about being in love with two guys, but too confused of who to choose since they both treat her well so I said she should send me their pictures and this crazy girl just did!
Me: I was kidding wena Keitu! I can't make a choice for you.... your heart should do.
Keitu: My heart?
Me: Yes. Who does your heart beat for the most? Who are you thinking of most of the time? The one that turns you on by just looking at him.
She laughed hard, causing me to chuckle.
Me: The one whose touch makes you feel goosebumps or maybe butterflies in your tummy? Yes, that's the one.
Keitu: Wow... so vele my brother makes you feel all those?
I kept quiet. He really does... for some time, I get really confused cause even Tshepi makes me feel some typer way.
Keitu: Hello? Are you there?
Me: Ohh yees, bbes... he definitely does! Mxm even his deep voice makes my pvssy twitch.
She laughed hard. She's such a hyena! I laughed, joining her.
Keitu: I'm going to think about it then.
Me: Cool.
Keitu: You can sleep now.
Me: Mxm, how can I, now that you woke me up?
She laughed, I giggled and dropped the call. I smiled, looking at her number. She's such a free, happy soul.
"I see you like her,"
He said from the door. Mxm, I know he's gonna act like nothing happened. I didn't reply to him. I got off the bed and made it neatly with him, watching me. I made my way out to his bedroom and took my toiletry bag with a towel heading to the bathroom.
Thato: Aren't you gonna use the ensuite?
Mxm, why is he talking like we're still together? I took my precious time taking a long bath. After a while, I walked out and went to his room. He was in no sight, which was a relief to me. I quickly did my thing and wore my short black skirt with a cropped top and sliders. I just combed my afro and let it loose before heading downstairs.
Thato: Finally! Let's dig in...
Me: Morning Tshepi... hey muchkin.
Tshepi: Morning.
Pretty: Good morning, Aunt Zinhle.
I smiled and walked to the kitchen. I made myself a porridge and headed back to the dining room. I sat right next to Tshepiso.
Thato: I made breakfast, Zinhle. Why aren't you having it?
I ignored him.
Tshepi: You good?
Me: Yeah, why?
Tshepi: Your eyes are red and puffy.
I did notice that! Damn I couldn't help myself yesterday but cry my lungs out. Thato broke me... he hurt me, and the fact that he doesn't care hurts me worse.
Tshepi: Zinhle?
Me: Oh no, it's nothing.
Tshepi: You know you can tell me anything, right?
Me: Right.
Tshepi: Don't wait for toms cause we're leaving later on.
Me: Oh, really?
Tshepi: Yeah, Portia says she misses her nana.
I smiled faintly, glancing at Pretty. She was so focused on her food. I happened to glance at Thato and found him staring. I couldn't even read his expression.
Me: I'm leaving with you guys.
Thato/Tshepiso: What!?
Me: Tshepi, remember I once promised to visit you? Well, I am then.
Tshepi: Zinhle, what's going on?
Thato: You're not going anywhere.
Me: Says who? wena the mighty Thato? Mxm, you're not my husband nor my boyfriend, so you can't tell me what not to do.
Tshepi: *frowns* What's going on here?
Me: You know what? I'mma pack my stuff now.
I took the last spoon of my porridge and stood up. I walked upstairs, and I heard his footsteps following me.
Thato: What the hell, Zinhle?
Me: I'm leaving. I'm not coming back.
Thato: So you gonna live with my brother?
Me: That's none of your concern.
I took all my clothes from the closet and shoved them in the suitcases.
Thato: Fine, leave!
Me: Like I needed your permission.
I know he's not a begging type or anything like that.
Thato: You can go back to that monster of yours. I don't care!
Me: Like you ever cared!
Thato: You're such an ungrateful b¡tch!
I gasped. Did he just say that?
Thato: I protected you from that boyfriend of yours! I took you in, helped you heal, I did everything in my power....
Me: I never asked you!
I continued shoving my clothes in my bags.
Thato: Raise your voice at me again, and you'll see the other side of me.
Me: What you gonna beat me? go ahead!
He stepped closer. I walked back and got tripped by the bed. I fell on it, hiding my face. For some time, nothing happened. I looked up at him.
Thato: You really think I would beat you? What do you take me for Zinhle?
Me:....
I stood up and zipped my suitcase.
Thato: So vele you're leaving me?
Me: Can't you see? are you blind now?
Thato: Fine Zinhle, go....
He took out his phone and dialed someone's number.
Thato: Hello, is this Mamello?
....
Thato: Oh, Bontle, can I please talk to her? I need her to move in with me.
He said, heading out... wow, did he even love me? So much for promises he made. He broke all the promises he made. What about "till the last breath of my life" promise? I sat on the edge of the bed, letting my tears out.
I felt someone's arms around me, his cologne gave it away. He squeezed me tight, causing me to let it all out.
Tshepi: Shhh, it's gonna be okay.
Me: No, it's not... he doesn't love me... he lied. He betrayed me, Tshepi. How could he break me like this?
Tshepi: *whispers* I'm sorry.
I expected those words from Thato, not him. Mxm, what was I thinking falling for a fûck nigga? Why did I believe that he'll change for me? Mxm who did I think I am of changing a man?
Tshepi: Are you done packing?
I nodded. He made me face him and wiped my tears with his thumbs.
Tshepi: He's gonna come around... he's like that Zee, he can't control his emotions.. once he calms down, trust me he's gonna regret and come around.
Me: I don't want him anymore Tshepi. He called his baby mama to move in, I haven't even moved out, yet he called her right in front of me. He never apologized, and I made peace with that, but you see what he did now? I needed to hear him apologizing, but he did not.
I wiped a tear that just rolled down.
Me: He doesn't respect my feelings... he doesn't care about me.
Tshepi: He does... trust me, Zee, he does care a lot about you... he just can't control his emotions. If he's hurt, he would want you to get hurt, too. You see, now you're saying you're moving out? he's hurt by that, so he wants you to think he doesn't care, so he called that girl.. he wants to hurt you, too.
Me: But he already hurt me. How many times does he want to hurt me, Tshepi?
I started all over again and broke down in his arms... I needed Thato's arms. I need him.
Me: He's a liar.
Tshepi: ....
Me: He said he'll love me till his last breath, he lied Tshepiso.
He just kept quiet brushing my back as I cried my heart out.
to be continued.
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