Chapter 44

“HIS BEAUTIFUL PIECE OF ART”

CHAPTER : 44 .

RORISANG . 

“when i first saw the guy behind the piano , with a beautiful voice , i felt drawn to him . He had the most beautiful voice , i didn't see his face but i was drawn to the fact that he praised God through music . I cried that day , he sang one of the songs my mother loved but i didn't disclose that .” I take a deep breath . 

“when he approached me and my kids . There was just something about him , the way he stared at me . You'd swear i was a piece of art .” he smiles . 

“moving forward , he didn't get out of my mind . His voice , his body structure , his face on its own was all that couldn't be forgotten just like that .” I say . 

“i fell inlove but i wasn't aware , falling inlove within a couple of hours wasn't on my bucket list and i swear God joined us together when he sent him to my company , he was there to work for me . Was it a coincidence ? I don't think so . I'm older than him by the way , I'm more wealthier than him but its like i didn't even care about all of that .” I say , I'm about to cry again , this relationship hasn't been easy for me . 

He holds both my hands as they start shivering , his touch .. 

“I'm the one who confessed their feelings first and that day , i felt like any other girl that just got into a relationship with a guy they've always wanted . We shared our first kiss that day and for a moment , i felt loved .” I say , he looks down . 

“he didn't judge me because i had my son at 15 , instead , he worked on getting to know my kids better and creating a bond with them .” I say .

“he didn't use me for my money , he didn't even want me to spend my money on him . I understood his situation because honestly speaking , we all have to start somewhere right ?” I say and he nods lightly . 

“i loved how beautiful our love was , how he cared for me and how he loved my children like his . He was honestly the man of my dreams .” I say pressing my lips together , my eyes are getting teary .

“he showed me love , showered me with love . Handled my body with love and care . Every touch from him was from outer space . He made me feel like I'm the only girl in the world .” I say . 

“but i never thought he'd lay his hands on me one day . I never thought I'd cheat on him .” yeah neh . 

“when i cheated , i felt guilty in every type of way because all this man showed me was love and nothing more .” I say . 

“i knew i didn't deserve such a caring and wonderful man hence when he beat me up , i didn't say he was an abuser but I said , he beat me up because i fucked up too .” I say , he's sweating .. I sent him to a very dark place . 

“the bruises he made on my face were nothing compared to the pain i saw in his eyes that day , the anger and betrayal . I sent him to be the person that he was when he was beating me up .” I say as tears begin rolling down . 

“i blamed myself , i ruined our relationship . I let another man get in between of us whereas i promised that I'd never betray him .” I try yanking my hands off his but he's holding them tight . 

“i fell inlove with a God fearing man who has had all the childhood trauma growing up . I fell inlove with a man that wrote a song for me , i fell inlove with a man that painted my face perfectly and beautifully . He laid his hands on me , our relationship ended . I've blamed myself till now because if i hadn't cheated , then he wouldn't have done that .”

I burst into tears , I didn't realize how much I needed to let off my chest until now .

“can i give you a hug ?” he says , I'm not looking past the fact that he hurt me and I hurt him . I just want him to hold me . 

“please ..” I say pleading . He wraps his arms around me , I cry out loudly . 

“do you think he feels remorseful about laying his hands on you ?” he asks . 

“he does .. the man i fell inlove with wasn't the one that laid his hands on me that day .” I say , he kisses the top of my head . 

“I'm sorry Rorisang .. I'm sorry .” his tears are falling onto my skin , why did everything have to be like this ? can I rewind ? 

“i..it hurts .. it hurts so bad .” I'm getting hiccups , I just want to cry .

“I'm sorry , i hate myself for being the reason you're so broken .” he says making me cry more . At this point , you should just get glue stick and stick me to him because there's no way I'm moving from him .

“Lwa ...” I say . 

“Rori ?” he responds .

“please go to therapy ..” I say , I raise my head to look at him . His eyes are all red .. 

“therapy won't rewind everything bad i did to you .” he says .

“but you're gonna be able to manage all the trauma , the pain and the anger .” I say , he heaves a sigh . 

“please do it for me ..” I say .