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THE BRIDE

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#A few days later

LISA

***The funeral is tomorrow...unonhle is not talking to anyone...it's hard for her to accept that he's gone...sihlezi sinaye even if engakhulumi...ngisaphumile njengamanje ngbheke esbhedlela...umxolisi ngzohlangana naye phambili... we're doing this and i hope after this yonkinto izolunga...ngilalele umusic kancane...i have hope that everything will be okay...ngfike esbhedlela ngingene ngaphakathi...unomah usefikile...siqale sicheck amagazi before singene ngaphakathi...umxolisi afike naye because we need his sperms..2 hours later we're done...umxolisi angbambe ngesandla angcabuze isphongo***

Nomah:Thank you for trusting me

Me:Our baby is with you now...pls don't disappoint me

***She nods...umxolisi umtholele i apartment azohlala kuyo...sizoba sonke sikhulisa ingane...i just hope this is gonna work...kmele sbuye after a month to check if isebenzile lento...singene emotweni and head home...ngikhathele kakhulu! Umxolisi angqukule masfika endlini bese engbeka estulweni***

Me:What are you doing?

Mxo:Cooking for you

***Ngmamatheke...akhiphe izinto bese efaka i apron***

Me:Ucabanga ukuthi sizodlula kuyoyonke lento?

Mxo:Kuzodlula sthandwa sami

Me:Ungangizwa kabi mapholoba... I'm happy with you futhi ngyakthanda...kodwa yabona i feel like injabulo yami incane....izinto ezimbi ezenzeka empilweni yami zyalandelana

***I sigh***

Me:I'm just a girl...i deserve i break

***Asondele angcabuze***

Mxo:Konke lokhu kuzodlula sthandwa sami...we will have our happy ending ngyakthembisa

Me:You just lost your brother kodwa uwena oduduza mina

***He sighs***

Mxo:Akukho esingakushintsha...umfwethu usishiyile...kubuhlungu kodwa I can't show weakness now...not when his killer is out there

***Angdedele bese eyaqhubeka eyapheka***

Me:Nonhle won't cope all alone...mhlampe engahlala nathi for a couple of months?

Mxo:Angboni ukuthi uzovuma kodwa ungakhuluma naye

Me:If lento isebenza...unomah akhulelwe..kusho ukuthi we're gonna be parents

***Amamatheke kuvela isfaca***

Mxo:You're gonna make a great mother

Me:You're gonna be an amazing dad

***ohh lord...i pray it's works...i know how badly we need this***

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NOMAH

***I feel bad for betraying lisa kodwa i had no choice! Nokukhanya will hurt my kids...siphume syongena emotweni and drive off***

Khanya:Uke nje ucabange ukungihambela emumva..uzongazi ngyakthembisa

Me:Why are you doing this to your sister?

Khanya:My sister?? She may look like me kodwa she's not my sister...yes we shared i stomach sa mah kodwa lo 28 years bengingedwa ngingena sisi...worse part she stole my husband from me...ekhaya sebethanda yena ukudlula mina!

Me:Mxolisi was never yours to begin with

Khanya:Wazini wena namadlozi akho mmh??! vala lomlomo wakho and continue to pretend as if amaqanda akuwe

***Abrashe isisu***

Khanya:I'm sure I'll be pregnant soon

***Angbuke***

Khanya:They can never found out about this

Me:Ngokuhamba kweskhathi kzomele kvele isisu kimi

Khanya:Sizobona senzenjani...okwamanje hambophahla uthandaze kumadlozi akho ukuthi ngikhulelwe!

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#NEXT DAY

NONHLE

***Ngidonse umoya ngiwkhiphe...selufikile lolusuku and I'm not ready for it... I'm not ready to face today...ngizibuke esbukweni...ngfake ingubo emnyama ende with a black doek and scarf...ngfake nesgqoko esimnyama...ngithathe isthombe sa nhlaka ngihlale phekombhede***

Me:Yazi ngilokhu ngcabanga ukuthi uzobuya...uzoqhamuka ungitshele ukuthi usaphila...ngikukhumbule bambolwami

***Zehle izinyembezi...angene umxolisi wearing a black suite...ngsukume ngimbuke***

Mxo:Kmele sihambe

***I nod...siphume englandele ngeumumva...ngizwa islilo ngingaphandle...i guess bayambona...i deep sigh bese ngyangena...ngsondele kwibhokisi lakhe luthi heqe uvalo...ngihlehle but i bump into a hard rock behind me...umxolisi...angbambe and i just cry...ohh bawo!! Why?? Why?? angsafuni nokubuyela! Ngphumele ngaphandle coz i feel like I can't breathe...everything goes blank fast!***

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***Ngvule amehlo kancane...ngsemotweni and iyahamba..umxolisi is driving..ulisa uhlezi eduze kwami***

Lisa:Are you okay?

Me:What happened?

Lisa:You fainted

***I sigh... I wasn't ready! Seeing him elele nje ethule! Ngathi uzovuka akhulume angtshele ukuthi uyangthanda...i guess i slept throughout the whole service ngoba manje sbheke emathuneni...sfike bese syehla...langa, mxolisi and sandile are next to me...ubaba ubambe umangcobo...as soon as lehla ibhokisi ngizwe ngathi umphefumulo wami uyaphuma..ngiwe phansi but I don't hit the ground! Bangbambile ngemumva***

Me:Nhlaka!! Nhlaka ngyakcela!! Ngyakcela!! Ngcela ungangshiyi nhlakanipho!!!

***Ngbambe umxolisi***

Me:Mtshele avuke mxolisi mtshele!!! Mtshele!!

***I slap him three times and he stands there holding me!***

Me:Nhlaka!!!

***Angbambe umxolisi and i cry out loud...my heart beating fast like it will stop at any moment!***

Lisa:Nonhle

Me:Hhayii!!! Hhayii!!!

***Angihage naye as we both cry...ngimubambe ngimqinise and cry... I'll never see my husband, my soulmate ever again! His smile! Angeke ngsezwa ngisho ama jokes akhe abhedayo...Nhlakanipho Ngcobo waze wangizwisa ubuhlungu!!***

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MXOLISI

***Ngimile emnyango watching mashenge....uhlezi eduze kuka nonhle who is sleeping...we had to drug her ngoba ubengafuni ukwehlisa umoya...ngphumele ngaphandle...obafo bayaphuza kuthulekile...ngizwe ngezandla zingbamba ngemumva and my shoulders relax***

Lisa:Mapholoba

***Esho nge voice encane encibikalisa inhliziyo yami***

Me:Mashenge

Lisa:Are you okay?

Me:Mmmh

Lisa:Ngizohamba nawe

Me:Cha, unonhle uyakdinga

Lisa:Nawe uyangdinga mapholoba

Me:Trust me thembalami...ngizoba right mina

Lisa:Kodwa-

***Ngmnike i baby kiss..fuck I love this woman***

Me:Ngcela singaphikisani mama

Lisa:Okay

Me:Kzomele ngihambe...ulanga no sandile are here with you uma kukhona enikudingayo

***Ngithi ngyahamba angbambe***

Lisa:Be safe...i...I don't wanna lose you

Me:You won't lose me thembalami

***Ngimcabuze isphongo bese ngyaphuma...ngingene emotweni and drive off...an hour later sengfikile..ngehle ngfake izandla emaphaketheni bese ngingena ngaphakathi...uhlezi estulweni nefoni esandleni***

Me:Bafo

***Aphakamise amehlo angbuke...i can see that he's in a lot of pain***

Nhlaka:How is she?

Me:She's sleeping

Nhlaka:Ngfuna ukumbona

Me:Angeke ukwazi

Nhlaka:Fuck mxolisi! umbonile ukuthi unjani??!

Me:Ngyazi ukuthi uzizwa kanjani kodwa akmele kwaziwe ukuthi uyaphila...not when the enemy is out there!...ngfuna ukthola umuntu owenze lento kqala

Nhlaka:Umfazi wami is losing her mind

Me:Nhlakanipho

Nhlaka:Ngzombona ksasa ntambama and wena uzokwenza kwenzeke lokho uyezwa?? umfazi wami lo and she's carrying my child! what if we lose this baby??

***I sigh***

Me:Fine...ngzokwenza i plan...uyambona uyahamba uyangizwa?

***He nods***

Me:Uzizwa kanjani??

Nhlaka:Uma sengbambe umkami ezandleni zami ngzoba right

***Ngithathe ama pills ngimnike...to think i almost lost him! Kzomele ngthole lomuntu owenze lento and make them pay!***

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