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THE BRIDE

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LISA

Today is the day...uyezwa emoyeni ukuthi today is not a good day at all...ufikile ugogo izolo ntambama and everyone was in tears...i found myself shedding a tear too...ubaba and the brothers yibo nje ebebeziqinisile...i was watching mxolisi...every move he made...he held no emotions...njengamanje silungiselela ukumfihla..ngifake ingubo ende emnyama with a black scarf...izulu liyabonakala ukuthi lizona soon..bayacula nje abantu and mina ngi up and down ngisiza la engsiza khona...umndeni wakwa ngcobo mkhulu kakhulu...sfike iskhathi sokumbeka endaweni yakhe yokugcina...umangcobo akhale, ubaba ungcobo amthulise...ngsondele ku mxolisi ngimbambe isandla..asbambe asqinise...silibuke ibhokisi lehla...sfake inhlabathi bese syahamba...i deep sigh...sbuyele ekhaya, kunabantu be cetaring so asdingi uksebenza kakhulu...liyanetha kakhulu ngaphandle***

Nonhle:I need a strong wine

Stharh:Tell me about it

Nonhle:Uphi umandisa?

Stharh:Uhambe emvako mngcwabo, she was rushing to work

Nonhle:Ohh yeah...lisa awulifuni i wine?

Me:Ayngeke, hlezi ungfaka eynkingeni nge wine lakho

***Ahleke...mangphuza nje akunglungeli..kuncono ngibe sober***

Stharh:Ungavumi ukuba weak...ngyabuya

***Asukume ahambe***

Nonhle:He's staring

***Ngiphendukise ikhanda...umxo uhleli no bhuti bakhe..his eyes are on...me..luthi heqe uvalo***

Nonhle:Mase ungitshela ukuthi he feels nothing for you

Stharh:I'm back!

***Uphethe iynkomishi zetiye..afike athele i wine phakathi and i just laugh***

Nonhle:Yabonake manje uyakhuluma

***Bethathe bephuze...wel I'm glad that sebe right...phela ngagcina kune beef***

Stharh:Phuza sisi

***Ngithathe ngiphuze nami***

Me:Manicabanga ubaba uzoba right?

Nonhle:I know uzoba right

***I nod..ngiphendule ikhanda only to find mxolisi staring at me...inhliziyo yami ithi heqe futhi! umoya phansi lisa!***

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MXO

Nhlaka:You're staring too hard

***Ngimbuke and sigh...ngthathe u beer wami ngiwuphuze...kumnyama phandle and sihlezi emumva...umngcwabo uphele hours ago and abantu bahambile***

Langa:You're hooked bafo

Nhlaka:Ungaphiki!

Me:Ayikho lento eniyikhulumayo

Langa:Mnx...ukhohlisa bani vele?

Nhlaka:Ukhohlisa thina or wena?

Langa:Kade sihlezi lana u busy ubuka ingane yabantu iyoze ikhinceke

Me:Bengizibukela ngaphandle mina

Nhlaka:Ukuthi linani ingaphandle?

***Ngbazibe...bayaphapha njalo laba***

Langa:Make a move bafo...lomuntu owakho and deep down you know

Nhlaka:Angfuni uphaphame seku late uzisola

***Ngthule and sigh...angazi ngampela ukuthi kwenzakalani...lokhu sfikile laykhaya ngilokhu ngsondela ku mashenge...indlela angbuka ngayo, angthinta ngayo...or the way she feels wrapped around my arms...eiish! kmele ngabe ngyala kodwa inhliziyo ikhuluma okunye...ngimbukele ekdeni..uyakhuluma...ngbuke ubuso bakhe obuhle...angkhumbuli ngbona umuntu omuhle kangaka...i look away...ngazithembisa ngathi angsophinde ngvumele umuntu enhlizweni yami...lent engiyqalayo kzomele ngiymise ngampela...ngsukume***

Langa:Uyaphi?

Me:Ngyolala, ishayile

***Ngbashiye...ngqale ngyogeza kqala... it's been a long day***

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LISA

***After a long talk with the girls i decided to go to bed...umzimba wami ukhathele bandla...ngfike ngingene ekamerweni and hear the shower running... ngingene ebathroom ngibhince ithawula and do my skin routine...a few mn later aphume umxolisi enqunu...ngimbuke esbukweni...all those muscles...i swear my clit did ivosho...okay calm down lisa...angasho lutho aphume...i brush my teeth then ngingene kwi shower nami ngigeze...mangiqeda ngphume ngigcobe ngfake ama pijama..ngphume kwi closet room...umxolisi ulele kusofa...okay? ngingene embhedeni ngimbuke***

Me:Why ulele ksofa?

Mxo:I'm comfortable here

Me:That couch is not comfortable kwasho wena

Mxo:Lala lisa

Me:Lisa?

***He sigh... he's not even staring at me***

Me:Kukhona engikwenzile?

Mxo:Cha

Me:Manje sekwenzenjani?

Mxo:Lisa go to sleep

***Ngsukume ngyoma eduze kwakhe while folding my arms***

Me:Mxolisi

***Angzibe...ngimphuce ingubo...avuke angbuke...is he irritated?***

Mxo:Lisakhanya

Me:I'm not lisakhanya kuwe mxolisi!

***Sengyabona ukuthi ngisthathaphi isbindi esingaka... it's the damn wine... it's always le wine!***

Mxo:Buyisa ingubo ngfuna uklala ngikhathele

Me:Umbhede uyakbuka nje

Mxo:Angnaso iskhathi sokudlala

Me:Ubona ngathi ngyadlala mina? why ulele ksofa?

Mxo:Ngoba ngyathanda... ungakhohlwa ukuthi umshado wethu akuwona wangampela so ngcela ubuyise ingubo

***What he said did break my heart..ngimphosele ingubo ngphume***

Mxo:Uyaphi?

Me:Out of here...ungalala embhedeni wakho ngoba ngathi ngikbangela iscefe...and you're right...umshado wethu awukho vele!

Mxo:Mashenge

***Ngphume ngimshiye..maningi kabi ama rooms layndlini...ngicinge lapho okungekho khona muntu ngingene khona and lock bese ngiziphosa embhedeni...abafana nje bayacasula***

Mxo:Mashenge

***Ngimzibe...kuthulakale...shuthi usehambile vele...sengithi ngyalala ngizwe umnyango uvuleka..ngvuke fast only to find umxo engena***

Me:Wenzani?

Mxo:Ngcela syolala in our rom

Me:Ukuze uzolala kusofa?

Mxo:Mashenge

Me:I'm no longer lisa?

***He sigh..asondele angqukule aphume nami***

Me:Mxolisi!

Mxo:Shhh

***Angukwazi nokunyakaza..ngimlume ingalo kodwa kfana nokuthi ngidlala ngeskhathi sami...ahambe angfake ekamerweni and lock...afike angbeke embhedeni***

Me:Let go of me

Mxo:Uphuzile?

Me:Cha

***Ngithi ngyasukuma angbambe***

Mxo:Uyaphi?

Me:Ngfuna uklala mxolisi ngkhathele

Mxo:Ukwatile?

Me:Cha

Mxo:Mashenge

Me:I don't like this thing of you giving me mixed signals...namhlanje you want to hold me and ksasa you don't...that hurt mxolisi...i have feelings...anglona ithoyizi

Mxo:Bengingaqondile ukukphatha kabi

***I sigh***

Me:Ngcela uklala

***He sighs and let go of me..ngingene embhedeni ngimfathele...ngimuzwe esuka engimbathisa...for a moment ngithi uzongena embhedeni kanti cha ubuyele kusofa wakhe...yabona ukuthi bengkhuluma ngani?? The forehead kisses, hugs, uklala eduze kwakhe...angfuni ukuzijwayeza ngoba umxolisi mayethanda uba emotionally unavailable and mina angeke ngikumele ukudlala lama games awadlalayo...i don't want him close to me anymore***

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MXO

***Ngvuke esalele umashenge...uklala ksofa was not a good i dea ngoba umzimba wami ubuhlungu kodwa manje kmele ngzame ukuzihlehlisa ku mashenge...sbuyela emakhaya namhlanje...kubuhlungu ngoba besingahlagene ngento emnandi...***

Baba:Izobonana uma sfika

Me:Klungile baba

Baba:Nize kimi kanye nabafowenu uma niqeda

***Ngihage umama bese bengena emotweni behambe...ngbuyele kwi room ngfice seku cliniwe...aphume umashenge ebhince ithawula kuphela...izinwele zakhe zimanzi kanye namahlombe...ngigwinye amathe***

Lisa:Morning

Me:Morning

Lisa:Ulale kahle?

Me:Yebo

Lisa:Mhhh

***Aphenduke eyongena kwi closet, ngizithole ngimbuka... ngizwe umapholoba evuka ngvele ngfake izandla emaphaketheni...damn umashenge ushenge ungenzani ngampela?! After some time aphume esegqokile wabopha kahle...cha muhle umashenge...uyabona unkulunkulu wathatha iskhathi emakha***

Lisa:Sesingahamba

Me:Ngi-

***Aphume ahambe and i sigh...ngithathe iykhwama ngiyfake emotweni..usehlezi phambili..mangingena ngimfice efake ama headphones elalele u music ecimezile...i guess ngyazitshwa? Ngdumise imoto sihambe***

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