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LISA

***Ngvula amehlo kancane...my head hurt like hell...ngvuke ngihlale ngicikice amehlo..ngikephi?? Anglazi leli room elikhulu kangaka... I freeze when i move bese ngbona umxolisi elele eceleni kwami...luthi heqe uvalo! Konke okwenzeke izolo kbuye konke...ngsukume fast ngigqoke ngphume...ngehle ngyezansi ngphithiza...angazi nanokuthi ngizokwenzenjani ngampela! Ngphumele ngaphandle and ask my driver to drive me to nonhles house...gosh yabona utshwala! It's not that far...sfike bese ngya nocka..ngfonele unonhle***

Nonhle:Hello?

Me:Nonhle...usendlini?

Nonhle:Yes kwenzenjani?

Me:Congvulela

Nonhle:Hhu?

Me:Congvulela

Nonhle:Okay

***I drop the call and sigh...mn later avule bese ngyangena***

Me:Ngyaxolisa ukukvusa

Nonhle:Yini Kwenzenjani?? Is everything okay??

Me:Yhooo! Yhoo!

***Ngnikine ikhanda izinyembezi zishisa...ugh angazi why ngkhala...singene kwi guest room ngfike ngihlale khona and sigh***

Nonhle:Kwenzenjani Lisa you're stressing me

Me:We did it

Nonhle:Did what?

***Ngimbuke...awakhiphe wonke amehlo before i see a big grin on her face***

Nonhle:Ngampela??!

Me:Why ujabule??

***Ngizimboze ubuso***

Nonhle:Ubungafuni kwenzeke?

Me:I wanted it to happen

Nonhle:Manje inkinga ikephi?

Me:How will i face him after this?

Nonhle:Lisakhanya

***I sigh***

Me:into eyenzeke izolo ayikho incane..we...we connected...Our souls connected nonhle

***I sigh***

Me:And wazi ukuthi I'm a virgin...imagine nje ukuthi uzocabangani?

Nonhle:Why ecabanga ukuthi uyitshitshi?

Me:Baqamba amanga ekhaya ngoba nakhu befuna imali

Nonhle:So ubalekile ngoba you're too scared to face him?

***I nod bese ngizimboza ubuso...***

Nonhle:Do you regret what happened?

***I shake my head no.... I don't regret anything... infact I don't remember ever feeling like that for someone..i was drunk but it was special...i just know that umxolisi uzovuka esho ukuthi it was a mistake and now I'm afraid to face him ngoba okokqala useyazi ukuthi anglona itshitshi, okwesbili uzocabanga ukuthi ngiyisitshapa ngalento engyenze izolo...how will i face him??!***

Nonhle:Look....i think that you should freshen up bese uyadla ukhulume naye umxo...awkwazi ukbaleka forever...

Me:How's nhlaka?

Nonhle:Uzoba sharp...he's sleeping

***Ngsukume...thank god this room has a bathroom...unonhle anglethele iympahla ngihambe ngyogeza...the moment water water touch my body i feel it burn down there...a reminder of what happened last night...eiish...bekungamele ngivuke ngihambe yazi...but I'm not ready to face him...not after what happened***

Nonhle:You've been there for an hour

***Ngvale amanzi bese ngyaphuma...ngisule ngigcobe, ngigqoke... it's a tracpant neskibha eskhulu***

Nonhle:He called asking for you

***I sigh***

Me:Is he coming here?

Nonhle:I told him to give you some space

***I nod***

Me:Ngyabonga

Nonhle:Kmele ukhulume naye lisa...ukhathazekile ngawe...ubungamuzwa ukuthi ube panicker kanjani

Me:I will...i just need some time off

Nonhle:Okay...uzodlela la?

Me:Yes... I don't wanna face your man..not after what happened izolo

Nonhle:Khululeka ngo nhlaka...ngimnike ikhekhe wakhohlwa nokuthi ubecasukile

***Nghleke while shaking my head...***

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MXO

***I knew it...i fucken knew it! Ngvuke umashenge engekho embhedeni...ingqondo ibuye late ukuthi kwenzekeni izolo...ngivuke ngambheka indlu yonke kodwa ubengekho...i started panicking kodwa ngathola i call ku nonhle ukuthi she's with her...ngigezile ngafaka iskhindi neskibha...ngvele ngabona ukuthi lento izokwenzeka! I'm sure lapho akhona uyazisola...and I'm to blame! The fucv was i thinking nglala naye when she was drunk! Ngibrashe ikhanda coz I'm going crazy...angazi ukuthi ukwi state esinjani!***

Nhlaka:Qoqoo!

***Ungfica ekhishini ngenza i sandwich***

Nhlaka:Kunini ngi nocka, ungbale nami lapho

***Ngimenzele bese sihlala phansi***

Nhlaka:Izulu lishisa kamnndi namuhla uyezwa?

***Ngimbuke...ngyazi uzofuna iyndaba...beno nonhle bayathanda ukuzifaka ezindabeni zabantu***

Me:Awzile ukuzokhuluma ngezulu la

Nhlaka:Eiish wangbamba. Kwenzakalani phakathi kwenu?

Me:Lutho

Nhlaka:Lutho? Umfazi wakho ufike ekhala endlini

Me:Ubekhala??

***Fuxk!***

Nhlaka:Mhh, kwenzakaleni?

Me:We had sex

Nhlaka:Ngampela?!

Me:Cha, ngampela

Nhlaka:Awkahle mxo i crc lendaba

***I sigh nginwaya ikhanda***

Me:Ngcabanga ukuthi uyazisola ngoba ubephuzile...i knew that bekmele ngizibambe bafo...bekungamele nglale naye ephuzile

Nhlaka:Maybe you're overreacting..mhlampe akazisoli

Me:Pho why ehambile?? Why ebekhala?? Eiish I'm such a piece of shit! Yabona ukuthi why ngingavumi ukwenza lezinto zama relationships?!

Nhlaka:Bafo awehlise umoya..

Me:Ngiwehlise kanjani umoya nhlaka?? What if she feels like i took advantage of her? uzizwa ngathi i rap-

Nhlaka:Ungaliqhubeki lelogama mxo...awukhokhe umoya...mhlampe uyasaba ukbhekana nawe after what happened...mhlampe akazisoli

Me:Bekmele nginqabe bafo...yazi ngzamile kodwa indlela okwenzeke ngayo nami ngizithole sengiphakathi kuye

Nhlaka:How was it?

***Ngimbuke nginxaphe***

Me:Ubuza amasimba

***Ahleke enikina ikhanda***

Nhlaka:Did you feel something while niyenza?

***Ofcourse i did... my heart was beating faster than usual..umashenge ngisho engthinta umzimba wami uvele unyakaze...when i entered her palace i swear ingqondo ivele yahamba...she feels like...home...ngidonse umoya ngiwukhipha ngoba ngyabona ukuthi ungene ngakho konke enhlizweni yami nasengqondweni...ngbuke unhlaka and shake my head***

Me:It was just sex

***Kusho mina ngizikhohlisa***

Nhlaka:Uthathe u 3mn ukuthi uphendule umbuzo wami

Me:Pho?

Nhlaka:Mmmhh

Me:Mnx

Nhlaka:Khululeka uzobuya umashenge...mnike nje i space sakhe

Me:Until when?

Nhlaka:Until she's ready to talk to you...yini? Umkhumbule?

Me:Awhambe manje la

***Ahleke enikina ikhanda...***

Me:Ukhulumile no nonhle?

Nhlaka:Mmmh...si right

Me:Bakukhohlise ngekhekhe mmmh

***Ahleke***

Nhlaka:Ubengbuza ukuthi sbathole kanjani

Me:Wamtshela?

Nhlaka:Umtshela kanjani umkakho ukuthi une tracker emzimbeni?

Me:Kmele ngfake umashenge..ngzomlinda alale

Nhlaka:Mayezobuya nakhona

Me:Uzobuya

Nhlaka:Athi ngfonele obafo bezobabaza imhlola

Me:Uyabheda njalo wena

***Ahleke enikina ikhanda and i just sigh...uyedwa umuntu engfuna ukumbona***

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STHAH

***Ulanga won't let me go... I'm pissed as hell...angazi nanokuthi basthole kanjani izolo! ***

Langa:Sthandwa nakhu ukudla

Me:Anglambile

Langa:Baby

Me:Angfuni ukukhuluma nawe langa...lokho kmele kungene emadlebeni akho!

Langa:Manje ucabanga ukuthi ukuyophuza is a solution?

Me:What i do is none of your business

Langa:Careful Mrs Ngcobo... you're still my wife

Me:I'm not your wife... awfuni ngiku divorce... when i try to live my life uyafika uzonglawula

Langa:Live life?? Ukugqebheza uyodwakwa udanse phekwetafula u live life lowo?? Sthandile engathi uyakhohlwa ukuthi ungumfazi wami...ushade kangcobo..iyntatheli hlezi zinilandela zifuna ukbona ukuthi nenzanzi....what if banifake emaphepheni nidunusile lapha?

***Ngigoqe izandla***

Me:We were careful...no one was following us

Langa:Mnx

Me:Svumelene nge space langa...lento oyenzayo iyona ezokwenza ukuthi ngingafuni ukuxola

Langa:Ngyakukhumbula sthandwa sami...our home is not a home ungekho

"Langa"

***I frown...ubani lowo? Ngsukume nglandele ulanga obukeka ecikekile.. ngfike ngime uma ngbona uzenande...cha ngyalingwa***

Langa:Ufunani la??

Zee:Ngshilo ngathi ngzobuya

Me:She was here??

Zee:Ohh Mrs...usuze wabuya mmmh?

Me:Phuma emzini wami

Zee:Ngzobona ubaby dady wami

***Nghleke ngedwa...lentombazane ngzokorobha ngayo phansi... ngithi ngyehla angbambe ulanga***

Langa:I will handle her

Me:Kanjani ephakathi emzini wethu?? Shuthi mangingekho ufaka iyfebe zakho??

Zee:Ngiwu mawengane yakhe mina

***Ngsuke fast ngyekuye dragging her out***

Me:Ungazongjwayela amasimba mina kwami uyangizwa ntombazane??! Fokof phuma la!!

Zee:Uzomyeka langa mmh??

***Ngithi ngyamdosa awe phansi kuwe something...ngiwakhiphe wonke amehlo...isisu phela lesi! Hhaybo??***

Langa:Wtf!!

Me:You faked I pregnancy???!

***Abuke phansi amehlo akhe agcwele izinyembezi...aycha ngyaqala ukbona into enjena!***

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LISA

***Hours have passed...namanje ngsayvalele kleli room...i know i look childish kodwa uma kthiwa usezicathulweni zami ubuzobona ukuthi kunzima kanjani....kukhale ifoni yami...i number engingayazi***

Me:Hello?

Caller:Khanya

***Umzimba wami uvele ubande wonke!***

Me:Mama

Her:Uyaphila kodwa?

***Akaze aba nendaba nami so kyangmangaza ukfona kwakhe***

Me:Ngingaksiza ngani?

Her:Sdinga ukukhuluma

Me:Angeke ngikwazi

Her:It's about your sister

***Ngsukume***

Me:What about her?? nimtholile?? Is she okay??

Her:Asihlangane nge weekend sizokhuluma kahle

***Avale ifoni engshiya nembuzo emningi...ohh god..i hope my sister is okay!***

"Mashenge"

***Luthi heqe uvalo! Ngphenduke! umile emnyango nezandla emaphaketheni...ngigwinye amathe! Ufike nini??! Angene avale umnyango angbuke***

Mxo:Ukahle?

***I nod, avoiding eye contact...i hear him sigh***

Mxo:Kuyabanda ekhaya ungekho

***Ngphakamise amehlo ngimbuke...asondele and i swear umzimba wami uvele ugcwale uhlamvane same time...ame phambikwami***

Mxo:Kukhona engikwenzile?

***Ngnikine ikhanda***

Mxo:Ngcela ukhulume nami mashenge... ngyaxolisa uma ngenze into ongaythandi...fuck i feel like shit for allowing myself to sleep with you ungekho sober

***Ohh how cute...ucabanga ukuthi ngyazisola?***

Me:I don't regret what happened

Mxo:Yindaba uvuke wahamba? Kukhona engikwenzile??

Me:Bengdinga ukushawa umoya

Mxo:Ohh...

***Now is the time...hurt him before he hurts me***

Me:Mxolisi

***Angbuke... I can't keep eye contact so i look away***

Me:What happened was just sex, right?

***I see something in his eyes...ifike fast bese iyasuka... his eyes are now empty***

Mxo:Yeah...just sex
***Esho ina cold tone that hold no emotions***

Me:I'm glad we're on the same page

Mxo:Uzongfica ngiklindile emotweni

***Aphume ahambe..ngizwe izinyembezi zigcwala amehlo... I'm pushing him away kodwa it's for the best... I don't wanna risk with my heart... it's been through a lot!***

Nonhle:Why did you lie?

***Ngthuke coz angmazi uqhamukephi***

Nonhle:You love him lisa

Me:Does he?

***She sighs...***

Nonhle:Umbonile ukuthi uphume enjani lana?? Ngathi someone punched him on the face

Me:I have to go nonhle...thank you for ukunghlalisa

Nonhle:You guys need to talk

***Ngiphume ngimshiye coz deep down i know she's right...ngbone umxolisi esemotweni...ngqale ngime bese ngingena kle engfike ngayo...ngimbone edumisa imoto ehambe and we follow him...masfika endlini ngehle ngingene...senginyuka nje ngphambane naye***

Me:Where are you going?

Mxo:Out

Me:Yingakho ubufuna ngbuye? Ukuze uzongshiya ngedwa?

Mxo:Umdala uyakwazi ukuzinakekela sisi

***Sisi? Ouch that hurt! Ukhuluma nje akangbuki..his voice cold...iguess we're back to arrogant mxolisi***

Mxo:Don't wait up

***Aphume ahambe and i swallow the lump on my throat!***

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