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LISA

***Sihlezi etafuleni, ngthole umxolisi esengithengelile ukudla and kumnandi...i must say, i like that he always feeds me...nangenkathi sikubo ekseni wavele wangphakela...he may act cold kowa ngyabona ukuthi he does have a heart***

Nonhle:Coming out was a great i dea

Nhlaka:Yisho nje ukuthi kumnandi uku spenda imali

***Sihleke sno nonhle, well akaqambi amanga...we had the time of our lives while shopping...well siqhubeke sidle and then sidle i desert...ngbuke umxo and uthule..***

Nhlaka:Bafo askhulume

***Besukume belandelana***

Nonhle:What happened??

Me:With what?

Nonhle:Umxo ngyambona ukuthi akekho right

Me:Ohh, esinye islima somfana ebesingbamba lapha

Nonhle:Eiish i feel sorry for that guy ngoba umxolisi angeke amyeke

Me:What do you mean?

***Engakangphenduli bebuye***

Nhlaka:Kmele sihambe

Nonhle:But we're still enjoying

Nhlaka:Kunento evelile ngakho kmele sihambe

***Ngbuke umxo ongangbuki and he look pissed...ngsukume ngthathe iskhwama sami and walk out...ngvule iscabha ngingene emotweni naye angene***

Me:Kukhona into ewrong engyenzile?

Mxo:Cha

***Adumise imoto***

Me:Then why ungikwatele?

Mxo:Ngikukwatele?

Me:Yebo mxo

***Angbuke aphakamise ishiya***

Mxo:Mxo?

Me:Ngcela ungitshela ukuthi ngenzeni?? Is it about that guy? Angcelanga ukuthi anglandele

Mxo:Angshongo ukuthi iphutha lakho

Me:Then why kubukeka ngathi ukwatile

***Athule, ngbuke ngaphandle kwe windi indlela yonke...sengyabona ukuthi we're not going back to his home siya kwi mansion yakhe...masfika ngehle fast ngikhiphe ama heels and walk towards the house***

Mxo:Mashenge

***Ngime, ngphenduke ngimbuke***

Mxo:This has nothing to do with you...angikwatele wena

***I sigh...***

Me:Ngikhathele mxolisi...just for once i get to be happy and not pretend...ngyazi ukuthi lomshado uhleliwe kodwa ngiwumuntu nami...angishadanga ngoba nakhu ngithanda and nawe ngapha i can't seem to read you...one mn uright and the next ubukeka ngathi you will skin someone alive...yes there's no romance here kodwa singahlalisana njengabantu? Like ukhulume nami if kukhona into engyenzayo ongaythandi ngoba I can't read you...

***Afake izandla emaphaketheni***

Me:Or maybe singaqala sibe abangani?

Mxo:Abangani?

Me:Yes...

***Ngsondele kuye***

Me:Lisakhanya Buthelezi

***Ngimnike isandla sami... aphakamise ishiya angbuke and ohh boy! He look handsome while doing that!***

Mxo:Mxolisi Ngcobo

Me:Ngyajabula ukukwazi...and thank you for today.. friends?

***Athathe isandla sami asixhawule and smile a little kuvela iyfaca and my heart melt***

Mxo:Friends

***Ngimdedele and smile...well atleast kunoshintsho olubakhona!***

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NONHLE

***We're heading home...tonight was not that bad...i like that ulisa and mxolisi got to spend some time together***

Nhlaka:Ucabangani mama?

Me:Mxo and lisa

Nhlaka:Ucabanga ukuthi bazoba right?

Me:Mhh...ngyacabanga ukuthi umxo does like lisa ukuthi nje akafuni ukvuma..

Nhlaka:Yeah, nami ngyambona indlela ambuka ngayo

Me:We must plan something else...maybe a game night sibe sonke no langa and sandile, abafazi babo no lisa and mxo

Nhlaka:Uzovuma yini umxolisi?

Me:Uyazi nawe angeke anqabe..

***I sigh***

Me:I really want them to work out...ulisa is a lovely girl with a kind heart...ngyambona ukuthi udlule ezintweni eziningi...udinga nje abantu abamthadayo empilweni yakhe

Nhlaka:And sesikhona nathi

Me:Bobabili nje they can heal each other

Nhlaka:Sengyabona ukuthi why uyi therapist mkami

***Angcabuze isandla and i just smile***

Nhlaka:Kyamangazake kodwa ukuthi uyamthanda ulisa

Me:Why is that?

Nhlaka:You've known u mandisa no sthandile for years kowa you don't like them

Me:Hawu baby

Nhlaka:Nginamanga?

Me:Well no, kodwa there's something about lisa...like i just wanna protect her...

Nhlaka:You know that she's safe with mxolisi right?

Me:I know, but i feel like she does need a sister in her life

***I hope umxolisi won't hurt her ngoba uzobhekana nami***

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LISA

***I woke up in the middle of the night liduma! Ohh god! Ngyalisaba izulu ngphume ekamerweni nglunguze akukho muntu...eiish nalendlu inkulu nayo! angazi ukuthi ngenzenjani ngampela ngoba angeke ngikwazi ngisho ukuya ku mxolisi uzocabanga ukuthi ngyahlanya...ngihambe nginyonyoba.. kubekhona umbani ngigxume ngizithole sengishayisa umxolisi...angazi nanokuthi ufike nini apha!***

Me:You scared me

Mxo:Wenzani? Why ungalele?

Me:I...i was taking a walk

***Angbuke ephakamisa ishiya***

Mxo:Usaba izulu?

***I sigh***

Me:Yeah

Mxo:Asambe

***Angasho lutho ahambe...ngimlandele and now sengyabona ukuthi siya kwi main room...singene phakathi avale..okay ima ngbona manje ukuthi ufake i trunk ngaphezulu uqimbile...ngvele ngishiselwe***

Mxo:You okay?

Me:Mhh

Mxo:Ungalala embhedeni ngzolala esofeni

***I nod and take a deep breath...one thing i hate uma liduma izulu ukuthi kbuya yonke i trauma that i went through! okay calm down lisa! lidume kakhulu ngsukume while holding my chest..within a blink of an eye umxolisi useduze kwami***

Mxo:Mashenge

***Ngnikine ikhanda coz ngizwa engathi inhliziyo izophuma ngomlomo***

Mxo:Calm down...

Me:Uzobuya...uzobuya...

Mxo:Ubani ozobuya?

***Ohh god I'm having a panic attack! uzothini umxolisi??! Angbambe engthinta ubuso***

Mxo:It's okay...akekho umuntu olana..

***Ngsondele kuye ngimuhage...ngifihla ikhanda lami esfubeni sakhe..angbambe engiqinisa***

Mxo:Akekho umuntu ozokthinta ngikhona...

***I just cry... angiqukule angbeke embhedeni ngingamdedeli...angbambe lapho ngizigoqe kuye***

Me:Don't leave me!

Mxo:I won't

***These voices won't let me rest...ohh god why now??! When i thought i was doing just fine..these nightmares keep on haunting me***

Me:He's gonna hurt me

Mxo:Shhh..vula amehlo ungbheke

***Angbambe ubuso and i shake my head! What if i see him?? what if ngvula amehlo and I'm back in that basement??***

Mxo:Mashenge ngcela uvule amehlo yimi..

***I feel his soft hands on my face and a kiss on my forehead...ngvule amehlo kancane ngimbuke***

Mxo:Imina mashenge...akekho umuntu ozokthinta...yehlisa umoya mama..

***Ngimubambe ngimqinise and nod...angnike amanzi ngiwaphuze...angbeke esfubeni sakhe and hold me...angibrashe kancane umhlane and at that moment i felt safe..like no one can hurt me.. ngimbuke emehlweni before i fall to sleep...my safe place***

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