Chapter 16

MAVEZI KA KHABAZELA

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LONDEKA

***Usbaya has been calling and I'm ignoring his calls..angazi ngampela ukuthi ngzothini kuye...ungbhalele i text wathi uyangdinga e office because his laptop is not working...i roll my eyes ngoba ngyazisola ukuthi ngavumelani uksebenza khona! Ngehle emotweni and head inside...lana ngagcina ukfika ngenkathi uzithobile ethi angzoxolisa so ngyayazi indlela eya e office***

Zee:What are you doing here?

Me:To see the sbaya

Zee:He's busy

Sbaya:Singanyuka

***Angmazi nanokuthi uqhamukephi...ngbuke uzee who look so angry right now...nglandele usbaya syongena kwi office lakhe***

Me:Where's the laptop?

Sbaya:Sawbona mama

Me:Sbaya

***He sighs bese engnika i laptop...ngiyvule and there's nothing wrong with this laptop***

Me:Sbaya

***He sighs***

Sbaya:Bengcela skhulume

Me:About?

Sbaya:Us...ngenzeni londeka ngixolise?

Me:Sbaya...

***Angbambe isandla***

Sbaya:Ngikuthanda ngenhliziyo yami yonke... njengoba ungangkhulumisi akungeni ngisho ukudla...ngcela ungitshele ukuthi ngonephi ukuze ngizolungisa mama

Me:I don't think this would work sbaya

Sbaya:Baby

Me:Let me finish

***He sighs...***

Me:You're a good man and any woman will be lucky to have you...I'm not ready for a serious relationship...ngyakuzwa ukhuluma ngemshado and I'm just not there sbaya...ngyaxolisa if ngikuphula inhliziyo but I don't want to string you along

Sbaya:Ngcela ungphendule lombuzo

***Angbuke***

Sbaya:Did you ever love me?

***Ngbuke eceleni...he chuckles bese eyasukuma***

Sbaya:Shuthi ubeqinisile ugogo

Me:Ngani?

Sbaya:You're in love with someone else

***I look away...he chuckles shaking his head***

Sbaya:Ubungenza islima mina ngikthanda?

Me:I'm not inlove with anyone

Sbaya:Thula!! Unamanga unjalo sfeb#!

***Luthi heqe uvalo...those words reminds me of what my father use to call my mother***

Me:Sbaya

Sbaya:Yini nginamanga??!

Me:Ungakhulumi nami kanjalo mina

***Ahleke enikina ikhanda...so he can't deal with rejection?! Uvuleke umnyango kungene usethu***

Sethu:Ngizwa umsindo mangidlula, konke kuhamba kahle?

Sbaya:Wasiza wafika awkhiphe lesfeb#! Lana

Sethu:Sbaya!

Sbaya:What? She's a bitch bafo...cishe ngamenza umfazi cabanga nje nxh!

***I'm so pissed right now...ngiphume ngihambe...usethu anglandele***

Sethu:Are you okay?

Me:Uma ungbona ngi right?

Sethu:Ufike ngani? I can take you home

Me:Jesus christ! Bafana baka mkhize anihlukane nami phansi!!

***Ngimshiye kanjalo and rush out! I'm going straight to the police station***

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SBAYA

***Ngthele i whiskey ngiyphuze! Ngdinga into estrong ezofike ishise ingaphakathi...angene usethu angbuke and shake his head***

Me:Usuzongshumayeza?

Sethu:Uyazi nawe ukuthi ubhedile

Me:Ulahla mina sethu?? Mina wonke?? Fuck that!!

Sethu:Ukumbiza ngamagama? askhuliswanga kanjalo

Me:Angnandaba mina...ulondeka uyphulile inhliziyo yami bafo fuckk

***Ngihlale le glass engiyphethe iphihlike***

Me:Kyacaca ukuthi uhlanya no gogo babeqinisile

Sethu:Ngani?

Me:Ukuthi she's in love with another person bafo

Sethu:Sbaya

Me:She's mina siphosethu! Ngzobulala wonke umfanyana ozozama uksondela kuye

Sethu:She's not yours to have...ungacasuli amadlozi

***Ngimbuke***

Me:Ohh ugogo nawe ukutshelile?

Sethu:Awfuni ukfana njengo babomkhulu ngenxa yokungalaleli

Me:But she's mine bafo

Sethu:Umazulu?

Me:She's mine too

Sethu:Udakiwe wena!

***Angshiye kanjalo and i sigh...ngihlale phansi...londeka is mine...angeke ngvume nje ukumdedela! Let another man have her?? Never!!***

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LONDEKA

***Ngizongena ngaphakathi...angnaso Iskhathi sokbingelela abantu i just go straight to sbu's office...ngvule umnyango...angbuke and frown***

Sbu:Partner? akmelange ngabe ula-

Me:I want out

Sbu:What??

Me:I want out sbusiso ungizwile!

Sbu:Okay calm down

Me:Don't fucken tell me to calm down sbusiso! This thing is not easy as you think

Sbu:Ngcela uhlale phansi skhulume kahle

***I sigh and sit...angnike amanzi ngiwaphuze***

Sbu:Bayasola?

Me:No

Sbu:Then what's the problem?

Me:I can't keep on playing with people's feelings like this

Sbu:Izigebengu lezi londy and they deserve what's coming for them

Me:They are people too sbusiso...i can't do this to myself...ngyahluleka

***Angbuke***

Sbu:Are you in love with sbaya?

Me:What?? No!

Sbu:Pho?

Me:I just don't want to do it anymore

Sbu:We're almost there londeka

Me:I'm sorry

***Ngsukume***

Sbu:Ngzoknika iskhathi sokuthi ucabange kahle, wafunga londeka uyawazi umsebenzi wakho... don't let your feelings blind you...syakdinga kwi team nawe uyakwazi lokho

***Ngiphume ngihambe...ngfike ngingene emotweni and drive off...i take a long deep breath..ohh god i don't know what to do...mom, ukube ubukhona ubuzongitshela ukuthi ngenzeni...ngyafisa ngathi ubukhona coz i need you...your daughter needs you mama!***

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