Chapter 14

MAVEZI KA KHABAZELA

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LONDEKA

***I'm making breakfast ezansi...ubuthongo yinto enginganayo these days...ngyalala ngphinde ngvuke and i know that's not healthy...ngbone ngo nomzamo ehla ama steps ehambe eqalaza...i smile while looking at her coz she look like she has a hangover***

Me:Over here

***Ame angbuke bese eyehla ezakimi***

Zamo:Uhmm...hi

Me:Hi

Zamo:How did i get here?

Me:Awkhumbuli?

***Anikine ikhanda***

Me:You were drunk

***She sigh and shake her head***

Me:Igama lami ulondeka...i couldn't leave you alone while you were drunk so ngahamba nawe...this is my place

Zamo:I'm-

Me:Nomzamo Zulu...i saw your ID

Zamo:Ngyabonga kakhulu sis...angazi bengingenwe yini ngoba angiphuzi

***Ngmnike into yokwehlisa ibhabhalaz..ayphuze and frown...i chuckle coz ungkhumbuza izolo esephuza utshwala***

Me:Ukudla will be ready just now

Zamo:Where's my car?

Me:Outside

***She nods...ngimphakele bese sihlala phansi syadla***

Me:So, uhlalaphi?

Zamo:In a small town...it's 2 to 3 hours away

Me:Ohh okay

Zamo:Were you not scared of letting a stranger in your home?

Me:Izolo akaze ngbuke kanjalo...i just saw a woman who was in pain and bengeke ngikushiye in state

Zamo:He keeps on hurting me

Me:Why don't you leave him?

Zamo:It's complicated

Me:Awfuni ukuba happy?

Zamo:I do londeka...

Me:Then you should start putting yourself first

Zamo:Abazali angeke beyvume leyo

Me:Unangaki?

Zamo:25

Me:Umdala and you can make your own decisions

***Ngsukume ngiqoqe ama plate ngiwawashe...my phone rings...usbaya...ngiyibuke nje***

Zamo:Looks like akmina ngedwa onezinkinga

***Ngimbuke***

Me:I know that asazani kodwa indlela obungayo izolo I didn't like it...if lomfana ekukhalisa kangaka then he doesn't deserve you at all..

***Abuke phansi***

Me:You can take a shower umnyago wesbili

Zamo:Thank you..

Me:Anytime

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SETHU

***After that dream ubthongo zange bufike...ngyazibuza ukuthi what the fuck is going on...bengqala ngqa ukuphupha into enjena..and it's felt real...ngiphume kwi shower ngigcobe bese ngyagqoka...ngiphumele ngaphandle and abantu sebevukile...ngbone usbaya ehlezi phansi kwesihlahla edla ukudla***

Me:Mfowethu

Sbaya:Sure

Me:Yini Kwenzenjani wa grumpy ekseni kangaka

Sbaya:Izinto zami zyangbhedela...ulondeka akafuni ukukhuluma nami ngapha unomzamo naye angmazi ukuthi ukephi

Me:Unomzamo?

***He sighs***

Sbaya:Ngimqabule ngephutha

Me:Ngephutha?

Sbaya:I was stressed about londeka

Me:Manake...uqabule unomzamo ngoba nakhu ubune stress ngo londeka?

***Anwaye ikhanda***

Sbaya:I know how fucked up that is

***Angbuke***

Sbaya:I enjoyed kissing her

Me:Who?

Sbaya:Unomzamo

***Ngimbuke and shake my head...this is one confused man***

Me:What about londeka?

Sbaya:Ngyamthanda ulondeka and ngyafuna ukumenza umkami kodwa she keeps on pushing me away

Me:Ufuna ukumenza umkakho?

Sbaya:Yebo mase ngyamlamanisa

***I shake my head***

Me:Usufuna isthembu manje wena?

Sbaya:Abazali won't let me rest mfethu...unomzamo bamugxisha ngenkani emqaleni wami

Me:Yho!

Sbaya:Uzamo uzoba unkoskazi wokqala...ngkhulumile no baba wathi ngingamthatha unkoskazi wesbili engimthandayo kodwa i have to marry nomzamo first

Me:Uzosimela isthembu sbaya?

Sbaya:Ngimdaka sethu, ngimdala ngisho kunawe

Me:Umdala ngezinyanga ndoda

***He chuckles shaking his head***

Sbaya:I just need to find nonzamo ngihlale naye phansi skhulume

Me:Good luck with that

Sbaya:What about you?

Me:Nginani mina?

Sbaya:Ushada nini?

Me:Ohh fuck off man

***He chuckles shaking his head...benglethele ukudla ngihlale phansi ngidle...ngbone ugogo esbuka with a smile from far...ksamele ngimbuze ukuthi lento engiyphuphilo ichazani...ulondeka intombi ka sbaya... I can't do that to my brother! Yingakho ngize ngahamba ekapa ngoba bengbona ukuthi kuzogcina konakala...i decided to stay away from londeka ngoba angfuni ukuxabana no mfwethu.. but something keeps on pulling me to her***

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NOMZAMO

***I didn't know that there are still good people out there...nglokhu ngbongile ku londeka for lento eyenzile...if bekungomunye umuntu ubengeke athathe i stranger ayosfaka kubo! She's a very kind hearted person and beautiful too...benglokhu ngimbukile ekhishini coz damn she's hot! ubuso bakhe? Her skin and body?? angphathike uma ese mamatheka! Gosh i think i have a crush on her...amehlo akhe are something else! She's just perfect! Ngizongena ekhaya...i park my car bese ngyaphuma...ngingene endlini,umah angbuke***

Mah:Uqhamukaphi?

Me:Sanbona

Mah:Uqhamkaphi nomzamo?

Me:As you can see, I'm fine mama

Baba:Nomzamo!!

***I deep sigh***

Baba:Umawakho ukbuze umbuzo

Me:I was in durban

Baba:Wazi bani ethekwini?

Me:My friends

Mah:Izolo bekmele ubekhona emzini

Me:Akukhona emzini lapha mama! Usbaya doesn't want to marry me!

Mah:But you kissed!

Me:That meant nothing...bekuyiphutha nje...usbaya akangthandi mama and mina angeke ngishade umuntu ongangthandi

Baba:Ishonephi inhlonipho nomzamo?

Me:Ngikhathele baba...ngathi niyakhohlwa ukuthi nami ngiwumuntu! I also have the right to make my own decisions...

Mah:Nomzamo!!

Me:I'm moving out

Mah:Uyaphi??

***Ngbashiye kanjalo and pack my clothes...sengkhathele ngampela ukubalalela...kubekhona onockayo kwi room yami... ngphakamise amehlo and usbaya***

Me:Ubekwa yini la?

Sbaya:Ngcela skhulume

Me:Not now I'm busy

Sbaya:Uyaphi?

Me:None of your business

***Asondele angbambe and my body get goosebumps and i hate that!***

Me:Ungangbambi!

Sbaya:Ngyaxolisa mazulu...ngyazi ngikuphule inhliziyo kodwa ukuhamba kanje ekhaya aklungile

Me:Uwbanike wena?? uwbaba wami?

Sbaya:Mazulu

Me:Phuma kimi sbaya...wenze kwacaca wathi awfuni ukungshada manje ufunani kimi??!

Sbaya:We could make this whole thing work

Me:How?

Sbaya:Ngyavuma ukukshada

Me:Yini ekwenze washintsha umqondo?

Sbaya:Ngcela uhlale phansi

***Nghlale***

Sbaya:You can be my first wife and then i can-

Me:First wife?

Sbaya:Kukhona umuntu engimthandayo mazulu...ungaba unkoskazi wokqala bese eyaklama

Me:Get out

Sbaya:Mazulu

Me:Get out sbaya!! Get out!!!

***He sighs...asukume ahambe..ngthathe iympahla zami ngizipakishe zonke bese ngyaphuma***

Mah:Nomzamo!

Baba:Myeke nkoskazi

***Ngvule i boot ngfake izinto zami bese ngingena emotweni***

Baba:Ungabuyi la uma usushawe umhlaba

***Ngidumise imoto and drive off...ngithathe ifoni anf call londeka...she gave me her numbers***

Londy:Zamo

Me:Can you pls find me an apartment in durban

Londy:Kwenzenjani ngathi uyakhala?

Me:Sizokhuluma mangfika...

Londy:Okay drive safe pls

***I drop the call and sigh...the thought of sharing sbaya with another woman burns my heart! Why can't he see that i love him so much?? I loved him since we were kids!!***

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LONDEKA

***Nomzamo will stay with me for a few days...ngicele usbu amfunele i partment wathi i should give him 3 days...ngise mall njengamanje buying some food ngoba bekungekho and since ngzobe ngno zamo kmele kubekhona ukudla....i wonder what happened ngoba ebekhala nje...kuqalile kyanetha phandle and i roll my eyes...ngyazisola ukuthi why ngfike nge cab la bakithi! But i was tired of driving...ngime uline bese ngzokhokha...mangkhipha imali angvimbe usis***

Her:Bangnike i card bathi uzokhokha ngalo

***Esho ebe engshayela and i frown***

Me:Kuso bani?

Her:That handsome man over there

***Ngbuke ngasemnyango and there he stands, izandla zakhe emaphaketheni...i sigh and take my plastics and his card..ngfike ngimnike***

Me:Ngyakwazi ukuzikhokhela

Sethu:Ngyakwazi lokho

***Athathe oplastic bami and i sigh...sphumele ngaphandle***

Sethu:Iphi imoto yakho?

Me:Ngbize uber

Sethu:Uzohamba nami

***Ifike i uber ime eduze kwethu***

Me:I have to go siphosethu

Sethu:Ngihamba nawe mavezi sengshilo

Uber driver:Hhaybo aniyojolela kenyindawo ngyasebenza mina la!!

Sethu:Hhare mfwethu

***Amnike imali and he drives off..ahambe no plastic bami and i follow him...abafake emotweni bese engvulela iscabha...i sigh bese ngyangena...angene naye and drive off***

Me:I thought you were home

Sethu:Knezinto ekmele ngizenze lana...ngzobuyela ntambama ekhaya

Me:You shouldn't be here siphosethu

Sethu:Ngobani?

Me:I'm your brother's girlfriend

Sethu:Are you?

***Ngimbuke and he smirks***

Me:Sikwi break

Sethu:Why uphikisa inhliziyo yakho londeka?

Me:Excuse me?

Sethu:You're excused

Me:Are you sick in the head?

Sethu:Ungangijwayeli kabi mina mavezi, ukuthi ngyakuthanda akusho ukuthi ungigibele ekhanda

***I look at him shocked***

Me:Uyangthanda? Siphosethu I can't do this...

Sethu:You feel it too mavezi

Me:We can't do this to sbaya

***Angfuni axabane no sbaya! And I can't be with him because of my job! Gosh he loves me?? Amise imoto aypake eceleni komgwaqo and i frown...ehle bese evula iscabha sami and pull me out...angiyamelise ngemoto bese eyasondela caging me in...my heart is moving so fast right now!***

Me:Sethu...

***I thought i voice yami izophuma kodwa manje I'm whispering his voice damn!!***

Sethu:Angeke ngsakwazi uku pretend(a) from the moment I saw you at the club you took my breath away...ngangqala ukbona umuntu omuhle njengawe...your eyes...your smile...ubuhle bakho buyathusa, I didn't know if you were real or just an angel... I was watching you the whole night

Me:Why didn't you approach me?

***Why ngampela coz it's could've been him not his brother***

Sethu:Ngangigade usambulo no sbaya coz they were drunk...i was watching you from a distance kwi corner in the dark...i knew you felt eyes on you ngoba wawlokhu uqalaza

***Ohh gosh! So he was the one watching me?? Not sbaya?***

Sethu:Usbaya went missing ngahamba ngayomcinga...ngamthola ese bathroom ngase ngayocinga usambulo...mangbuya ngangamthola usbaya..ngamcinga ngamthola ngaphandle emile nawe...i watched you from a distance and i knew that usbaya uthathekile ngoba he couldn't stop talking about you sbheke ekhaya....i tried to forget you kodwa ngaphinde ngakbona kwi party...i knew i had to move on since usbaya esekwenze intombi yakhe

***He sighs and shake his head...izandla zami zimubambe and tha shock both of us...ngimbuke emehlweni and smile***

Me:I feel something for you too khabazela kodwa ngyasaba...

Sethu:Mavezi

Me:Angfuni uxabane no bhuti wakho ngenxa yami... I don't love sbaya which is why I'm going to break up with him..kodwa mina nawe we can't be together...bazothini abantu?? Ngzama ukuxabanisa obhuti?? Your family would hate me and call me names...i can't siphosethu...i can't

***I can see the hurt in his eyes and my heart breaks coz I don't want to see him hurt...angcabuze isphongo and brush my face***

Sethu:Ngyakuthanda Mavezi lokho ungakukhohlwa

***Angvulele iscabha and i get in...angene naye and we drive off...sfike endlini ngehle and he drives off in speed...unomzamo afike naye apake imoto...my chest hurt so much...ehle emotweni angbuke***

Nomzamo:Are you okay?

***I shake my head no and a sob escape my mouth...why does it feel like i let go of something i shouldn't have??...angbambe and i cry as i feel chest pains! Why is my life always complicated??!***

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