Chapter:13

Mbali Dlomo

My life is something else, you will never understand, even myself I don't understand it
Maybe you will think I'm living the best life but I'm just depressed teenager
My mother we seem close but we don't have that daughter-mother relationship
All she knows is to nurse her husband feelings
They think I don't know that Xola is not my father but I know
I once heard them arguing about it,Xola telling my mom he had enough to feed another man's child
You may think I'm rebellious or don't have respect but I'm crying for the attention of my mother
This days I feel otherwise
I don't feel okay at all
But I hope is just this changing weather getting to me
Tshepo is calling
He is my boyfriend
And another boyfriend is Musa but I'm into Tshepo not Musa
Musa he is a good guy but not what I want in my life
Mbali:Baby...
Tshepo:Ukuphi Mbali?
Mbali:At home why?
Tshepo:What is this I hear you are dating Musa while you are my woman?
Fear crippled in me
Because I know Tshepo doesn't take nonsense
Mbali:Haai baby where have you heard such?you are the only man for me you know that
Tshepo:I hope you are not messing with me because you know very well what do I do with people who mess with me
I did my fake laugh
I'm scared to the pits
Mbali:I wouldn't dream of messing with you muntu wam, you know how much I love you
Tshepo:When will I see you?
Mbali:Maybe tomorrow
Tshepo:Cha namhlanje Mbali and that's an order
Oh God I was supposed to see Musa today
I hope he understands
I went to see Tshepo
When I just arrived he pinned me on bed
Took my clothes off and he was wanting sex
I felt nauseous
Mbali:Tshepo ima
Tshepo:Yini Mbali?
He got off on top of me
I ran to the toilet
I puked until my stomach were hurting
He gave me water
Tshepo:Ugrand?
Mbali:I don't know I just feel dizzy
He laughed
Tshepo:Haai Mbali skat inyongo upeit
Mbali:Shut up okay,you are busy laughing here while I'm sick,why don't you at least give me money to go to the doctor?
Tshepo:Uhm...baby I don't have money right now on me
Mbali:But you always want sex and I don't complain I don't have it,useless Tshepo
What I hate about Tshepo he doesn't give me money at all
U'stingy
Mbali:Ngiyahamba
I called Musa I know he will do anything for me
Mbali:Hey baby unjani?
Musa:I'm fine baby and wena unjani?
Mbali:I'm not well I have stomach bug
Musa:Sorry my love,is there anything I can do for you?
Mbali:I want to do check up on a doctor, so can't you send me money?
Musa:You don't even have to ask my love of course I will
That's why I say Musa is a good guy
He did send the money
I went to see a doctor I'm just waiting to be called
They called me to get in
Doctor:How can I help today?
Mbali:I think I have a bug stomach because I have been nauseous for days and feeling dizzy
Doctor:When was your last period?
Shit!
No!
Doctor:Did you hear me miss?
Mbali:I can't remember when it was it
Doctor:Okay we can do pregnancy test
We did pregnancy test
We just waiting for the results
Doctor:5 min has passed we can check it
I nodded with fear
Doctor:Congratulations miss Dlomo you are pregnant
I felt more dizzy than I was
I didn't expect this
Pregnancy was the least of my expectations
I don't know who is the father of this baby
I have been sleeping with two guys in the same time
Mama is going to kill me
Few days has passed I don't know what to do
I don't want mama to find out
But the only person who I don't use condom with its Tshepo
Yeah so this baby is his
I went to his house
When I arrive I couldn't believe this
He's busy having sex with another woman
Mbali:Tshepo wenzani?
Tshepo:Haai ufunani la Mbali?
Mbali:How could you ask me that?
He told that girl to leave
Tshepo:Yeah ufunani khuluma?
Mbali:Yini ikinga yakho Tshepo?
Tshepo:Haai khuluma man!
Mbali:I'm pregnant
He literally laughed
Tshepo:Okay congratulations on your pregnancy then Mbali
Mbali:I'm pregnant with your child Tshepo
Tshepo:Ukhuluma masimba manje!do you think I will fall for your trap?hamba uye ku funa le baba wa lomtwana because I'm not the father
Mbali:But Tshepo you are the only one I didn't use condom with
I was near to cry
Tshepo:Hee wena are you even listening to yourself?so you slept with other men?phuma la before I do something I regret
Tshepo he is a lose canon he can do anything he is very much predictable
Maybe Musa would be more understandive
We agreed to meet on hotel
We always meet up in hotel
That's how much he spoils me
I arrived in his room
I find him ordered us food and all snacks
He pecked me
Musa:Hey baby do you feel better today?
I nodded
Musa:Are you sure?
Mbali:I have something to tell you
I put my head down
Musa:What is it baby?you know you can tell me anything
Mbali:I'm pregnant Musa
He kept quiet
He kept quiet for the longest time
Mbali:Musa did you hear me?
Musa:Yeah I did
I cupped his hands
Mbali:Love I know this baby came unexpected but we can make it work okay and I know you going to be a great dad to our child
Musa:What do you mean you are pregnant Mbali?
I don't know okay
Mbali:Pregnant as in having your baby
Musa:Mbali we always use a condom
I gigiled because this is scary
Mbali:Musa condoms burst all the time maybe you didn't notice it
Musa:This is not my child okay
Mbali:What do you mean?are you rejecting your own child?
Musa:This is not my fucken child!I did a vasectomy damnit
Oh no!
Musa:So you cheated on me Mbali?you are having another man's child?I did everything for you damnit and this is thanks I get
Mbali:Baby it was just once off mistake
Musa:You disgust me because your plan was to trap me with a baby,we are done
Mbali:Musa no please...
Musa:I don't want to see you ever again in my life