05

WHERE DID I GO WRONG?

CHAPTER 05



I woke up in the morning and did my morning routine, my so called husband wasn't next to me , maybe he went to work early.





I walked downstairs , the smell of food hit my nostrils . I inhaled .







voice:you finally woke up , good morning .

he said flattering his smile . it's only now that I realise he is a fine man , his wrong doings hid all his handsomeness .







me: morning .

I should have said good morning because it is , he made breakfast .





he opened the chair for me , I sat down and thanked him .





he sat down too , I said grace then he started eating .





me:you didn't poison the food ?



he paused and looked at me .





him:why would i do that ?

me:i don't know , if you managed to kill your own unborn babies then what will make you to not kill me ?



him:(sigh) sindisiwe please forgive me okay , I'm trying to own up to my mistakes and you're making it hard to be honest , whenever I change to that abusive man mode i don't know what is happening to me , there's something controlling me and I can't over power it , trust me sindisiwe I don't mean any harm in your life .



me:then let me go , let me live my life the way I want to live it , you made me miss my teenage days ! I couldn't enjoy my youth like any other teenager thulani .





him:i know okay , but it wasn't my idea too , I'm sorry sindisiwe .







I stood up then went upstairs .







My tears are falling out already , that's how broken I am , I can't even hold my tears , everything just hurt me .





I took my side bag , cellphone and car keys . well I do have a car , he's not that bad bad husband , he bought me a red Mercedes Benz C63 when I was turning 21 .







I walked downstairs , his head is on the table . I would say he's crying but no he is not he is too heartless to know how to cry .







I went to my car then brought the car to life .









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I arrived in Hammanskraal in an hour or so .





I parked my car outside the yard , it's been years since I came here , well that is because I wasn't allowed to .





my biological mother died when I was only 6 years old and Jude (my father) decided to marry another wife (Pretty) who became my step mother . She already had a thing with my father and they have a child who is 30 years old , his name is Simphiwe so basically he came first then I was conceived after , we share the same father .







she hates me but she doesn't reveal it that much . But I know she hates me with every fibre in her .



I walked out of my car , my high heels were sinking on the sand but I had to maintain the walk .







Pretty was sitting on the stoop reading a magazine , just like old times she hasn't changed .







her: sindisiwe ? Is this you ?





she doesn't seem pleased but surprised . dad came out of the house , I ran to hug him and immediately my tears fell .









he comforted me . I wanna come back home , emshadweni akumnandi at all , it hurts ! Being married hurts !





me:i wanna come back home baba , kubuhlungu .



I wailed and he hugged me tighter . he kept on brushing my back saying all will be well .





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