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WHERE DID I GO WRONG?CHAPTER 04
FEW DAYS LATER
ever been in a marriage where you felt unwanted ? well he doesn't like me i know but he has to go easy on me .
he just came back from work , I did all the chores earlier on . I dished up for him then warmed up his food .
me:here's your food
I said as I placed the plate full of food on the table .
he thanked me , first time .
him:we need to talk.
He said as I was about to walk away . I sighed and turned to sit down .
him:i'm sorry for the way i have been treating you , i wasn't fair at all please forgive me sindi
I wiped my tears that already escaped my eyes , for the fact that I haven't smiled nor laughed for years because of the pain I am living in ? it just gets to me and i am asking myself if is it normal .
me:it wasn't your first time thulani , you broke me , what about the miscarriages thulani ? all 4 babies gone because of you .
I said with a low tone as my tears streamed down.
I wanna scream , I wanna shout , I wanna beat him the way he usually beat me , but I am not that kind of person .
he sighed and placed the plate on the table .
him:i know you're hurt , i know i broke you and right now i wanna fix everything we have been through...
me:you mean everything you made me go through?
I asked interrupting him .
me:exactly , you don't know how to own up to your mistakes , clear indication you're not man enough .
I stood up and jogged upstairs , he should have slapped me , I know thulani .
I took a shower then wore my PJ's , it was around 8 pm .
I threw a sleeping pill in my mouth then drank water .
I got under covers , this Is what I do everyday . if I don't drink this sleeping pills I feel like all the babies I miscarriaged are haunting me , although it wasn't my fault that I lost them .
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